You are such great help to me. When I joined the site I was in a terrible condition. After reading the stories here and reading all the advices, posting so much myself too, I am so so so much better!
I have energy to wake up every morning, I sleep better, I’m more positive and optimistic! I’m so much better.
I only have one problem that ruins me completely... it’s a sadden hit of unexplained anxiety. It’s stress. It’s fear. It’s headache... rush of thoughts... huge bully pain and such an uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. Whenever that comes I can’t think straight, can’t be in a place, I’m somewhere else... all the time checking my cellphone, looking for answers on google for questions that I cannot even recall.
I don’t know how to get back from that state to me. And I have no idea how to track it root...
I only know that it’s fear that more problems will fall above me and I know that I’m not capable of really taking anything more...
It’s people that gonna leave me, it’s more offends, it’s failing and failing to me, parents, friends, it’s loosing more money, having more unhappy clients, it’s being sued again and again. It’s not being able to fix something for someone else.. it’s keeping my parents happy, it’s being a doormat again and again and also not feeling too comfortable about it.
How to heal? How to live a peaceful and healthy life?