I'm nauseous and anxious and depressed. I can't access help. Mom's miserable and hasn't paid my health insurance, even if i had doctors and ER treat me terrible, dad hung thee phone because his kid started screaming. I beetter d1e here faster. I called dad to say happy nameday and his kid just started screaming "dada, kaka(older sister)", knowing it's me, and he didn't care im sick. Every time I try to talk to him it screems and hearing it, especially how well it's talking now, and how it drained the life of MY mother, is killing me. I know im the b1tch and "it's reality" but God i tried everything but this kid is my Vietnam.
Edit : Why is everyone talking about me getting a job when i wrote this in search of help for my trigger? I feel judged