Triggered TW

[No_Longer_Human]

I'm nauseous and anxious and depressed. I can't access help. Mom's miserable and hasn't paid my health insurance, even if i had doctors and ER treat me terrible, dad hung thee phone because his kid started screaming. I beetter d1e here faster. I called dad to say happy nameday and his kid just started screaming "dada, kaka(older sister)", knowing it's me, and he didn't care im sick. Every time I try to talk to him it screems and hearing it, especially how well it's talking now, and how it drained the life of MY mother, is killing me. I know im the b1tch and "it's reality" but God i tried everything but this kid is my Vietnam.

Edit : Why is everyone talking about me getting a job when i wrote this in search of help for my trigger? I feel judged

[RS1974]

I'm sorry you're struggling right now. First question why are depending on your mom to pay your health insurance. Aren't you adult able to take care of yourself?

[Celtic18 in reply to RS1974]

I'm sorry but what's it got to do with you there are possibly good reasons why her mum pays her health insurance you don't know the persons age or circumstances think before you speak !

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Celtic18]

Thank you for understanding. Finally

[No_Longer_Human in reply to RS1974]

I tried so hard to find a job but it never works out. People, even older than me don't work because of mental health. And i have physical illnesses too. I am doing my best to get disability status and this will free me from health insurance. Hope i make it. I guess im a failure as an adult

[Celtic18 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

😄Your welcome some people open there mouth before thinking thank God the majority of people don't judge others maybe she might come back and apologise but I doubt it keep going

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Celtic18]

Thank you so much. All the understanding

[Celtic18 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

Your welcome x

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

Are you working, even part time?

If not, please look for a job

[No_Longer_Human in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

I tried. I almost got an ulcer. I want to work but i start puking. Also I don't see how this would help with my situation

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

have you talked about it to your therapist or counsellor?

[No_Longer_Human in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

Im too poor to have a real therapist, i just find free counselling here and there, but they gaslight me into working. I try and i get sick again