I wish it was over

[tylerjjjj]

Im so unhappy... im watching everybody around me get the jobs they want... the apartment/house they want, the cars they want... im stuck... unhappy and stuck. i literally hate myself. Im so tired of trying to act like things are ok but its not. I dont want to be friends with anybody... i want to be by myself. Im so unhappy with life. I cant even focus at work. I want to cry all the time. Nobody understands... nobody wants to really help or be there. Once they see how fucked up I am, then people want to flee. I hate life. I keep trying to apply for jobs and promote my business but i keep getting declined and ignored. Im crying and praying to God that he heals me and helps me find happiness but its like he doesnt hear me. I started deleting my social media because I got so tired of watching people post everything they have. Even one of my friends brags so much on social media it annoys me. I know life could be worse. I know i could be destitute, etc. but instead of dealing with depression. When youre stuck in a place you cant get out of it makes everything seem destitute. My mind is so cloudy. I can't think straight. I've never felt so alone in my life.

[Marshall64]

Are you seeing a therapist? It sounds like depression. You are not alone here.

I have conflicting views on social media but yeah, I would compare my life against others and it would sometimes get me down. Remember, we are only seeing the good highlights of people's lives, not the times when people were down, having conflict with spouses, family etc. I'm trying to take a different view and if people get an upgrade in house, car, a nice vacation, etc., I'm going to feel happy for them instead of comparing my life to theirs.

[lovetodance2018]

Know you are not alone. Reaching out on this forum is a great place to share. So many here have struggled and understand what you are feeling. Are you seeing a counselor? Have you been diagnosed with depression? Finding the right counselor, strategies to learn to cope, and sometimes medication helps balance our life. Then you will start to feel better. Here is a group bit.ly/2DS3v7S that provides online counseling and can direct you to the help you need. I will be praying for you. Keep sharing on this HU. We are here to listen and encourage you. Hugs!

[Rpan]

I know it’s hard to hear when others seem to be living well, we feel left behind. We can beat these negative, deflating feelings. First is to understand and admit that the issues we suffer are self taught. For me this way of thinking became an addiction, the more I think the more negative things look. You can find your way out of this. It will take much practice.

[b1b1b1]

Social media can be very upsetting. Since it bothers you, it is a positive step on your part to not participate in it. Many people feel the same way you do.

[Hidden]

I felt the same way until I started on my medications. I’ve tried yoga, natural supplements, all kinds of shit and nothing helped. Last October, I finally decided to see a psychiatrist and I’ve been on a few medications but the ones I’m using now are sooo good. I used to feel exactly how u feel and was socially anxious as well, cried all the time and I was a mess.

[foreverbeach11]

Hi tylerjjjj. You are having a hard time right now and I am sorry about that. I used to get depressed too reading everyone's social media pages. Just remember, those are only highlights of a person's life. Life has it's ups and downs and the people on social media are not going to show the times that they are down. When we compare ourselves to others, we are forgetting that God has a life planned for each and everyone of us. Our paths are all different. God hears your prayers before you even say them. Keep the faith and sometimes we need a lot of patience. Have you thought about counseling? Maybe it would help you with strategies for depression. Keep believing and God hears your prayers. You are in my thoughts.