im losing my mind

[ssull1]

i cant take it anymore, im so tired of my life, im not enough i studied a career to make my parents proud, but im losing my mind, i cant sleep and even if i sleep i have nightmares and when i wake up i feel soo tired i cant leave my bed all day, i just wanted make my family proud but i ended up ruining my life, im so sick, im losing my hair, i lost so much weight, my face is full of acne, i dont have friends i dont have anyone to talk about how i feel, i just want to rest, but im not even doing anything so everyone think im lazy

I applied for 3 different jobs and i was rejected and that hurts me because all my classmates seem to apply and fit but I don't and I feel very useless

im not english native speaker so I'm sorry if my grammar is wrong, I just wrote without using a translator.

[IncognitoC]

Sounds like you should talk to a professional about the sleep problems, a good nights sleep or even just laying down and resting can help.

You only applied for 3 jobs that is not many. Unfortunately in life we have to take a few knock backs.

[ssull1 in reply to IncognitoC]

My parents don’t want me to go to therapy, they think only crazy people need it, so it is really difficult for me to get professional help

[ssull1]

I’II try to breathe, because i can’t afford therapy because of my parents

[countinghyacinths in reply to ssull1]

Do you have any crisis/support lines in your area?

[Folkart]

One technique is to pretend you are healthy. It’s called Reality Therapy. Eat right, go see a doctor about the acne, get up make your bed and dress. Do all the things as if you are fine. If you pretend long enough it improves your outlook. It works for some.

[ssull1 in reply to Folkart]

I’ll try it, thank you, actually these days i felt better

[gerrerd]

A career does not make us happy, people pleasing will not make you happy. You are a soul in a body look to what makes you happy, follow that. Find your purpose, what makes you smile, what brings you joy. Look for them follow your dream, Ray.

[jadeite11]

Hi there, Im sorry to hear you feel so badly. Firstly you re not useless, and I think you re probably highly intelligent if you are studying. You sound like you are thinking too much about everything. Maybe because of how you are feeling try to do one thing a day that might make you feel better. Sleep is really important to your health so why dont you either get a herbal remedy or speak to your dr about, they will be able to perscribe you something. It sounds like there is alot of pressure on you, meditation or yoga classes may help you calm down abit. Stress can really effect everything in your body including your skin. Personally its whats on the inside that counts, but if you feel down about it there are remedies in the chemist that could help. Also eating better and drinking water helps. Also it may be that you need to balance all that hard work with some fun, what do you enjoy? Music, socialising, art, movies. Maybe join just one group where you can start meeting people of like mind. Please stop thinking that you are not worthy, everyone feels lonely sometimes, if you look from the outside everyones life looks picture perfect but its rarely so. We all have ups and downs, feel less than sometimes. Its worth learning how to get out of your head abit, read a good uplifting book, watch some comedy, do some sports. I also think it may help you to get some support mind.org.uk or the samaritans are there if you re feeling very low. If you look on here you ll see that lots of people feel the same way as you, not to say that you should feel bad or guilty, just that its ok to be you. Everyone has positive and things they need to work on, try think about some of the things you like. Theres lots of books on self esteem out there, Susan Jeffers is a good author. Please take your time with all this, a little thing done each day may start to work, get out in the fresh air and have a walk, nature is a good healer. I wish you well, start putting yourself first, and remember you dont need to tell your parents everything there are alot of private therapists out there and they have a duty of care to you, they are not allowed to divulge anything to your parents, so you could try that too.. Everyone has something to give to this world including you, there is no one out there with your exact qualities, sometimes if you4 life is hard its because you have more to learn and to give to this world xx I wish you all the best, peace and happiness to you

[ssull1 in reply to jadeite11]

Thank you so much, your comment really helped me, i felt better these days, i tried to change my diet and sleep better and it really helped me, y muchas gracias por tu comentario, de verdad me ayudo mucho a sentirme mejor y más acompañado 💕

[jadeite11 in reply to ssull1]

Ah, Im so pleased you are feeling abit better xx u r welcome 🙂

[CLB1125]

Hi your English is fine. Maybe you need to stop worrying about making your parents proud and stop comparing yourself to others, and just be yourself. Your parents will be proud of you unconditionally even if you’re a stock person at a grocery store. Your health is more important than being like your friends. Do what makes you happy. I have a screen saver on my computer that says “I AM ENOUGH “ as a reminder that no matter what I do I am enough. Life is too short to make others happy but you’re miserable. Take care of you!

[Kinlay]

Are you under a doctor's care? I would definitely consult someone. Not sleeping can skew everything in life negatively. If you want to try supplements, a few that may help are melatonin, magnesium, glycine or theanine. I would research them first and then find a reputable online or local retailer. Hang in there!!

[punkster]

Keep in mind that you are young and are in a difficult period of transition in life. You WILL find a job and you WILL find a way in this world. Please seek out the help from a therapist, if you haven't done so already. You said you aren't doing anything, but you wrote this post and you obviously want to get help. Please know that things will change if you just give it time and get some help.

[ssull1 in reply to punkster]

It’s been a while since i posted that, 9 months actually, and I’m so happy to tell you that you were right, life got a little bit better, I’m still struggling sometimes, but I just graduated from university and after talking with my parents they agreed to pay master degree in education for me, so i can finally make true my dream of becoming a teacher, i don’t have a job now, but when i quite try to fit into the major i didn’t like, i received several job opportunities, but i didn’t take because i wasn’t ready to teach, but I’m now preparing to become a teacher so now i know that sometimes we don’t get something because that’s not meant to be for us.

[punkster]

I’m so happy to hear that. Things have gotten better for me,too, with my anxiety. I even ventured to travel overseas and am sitting here with my second round of Covid and haven’t had one bit of anxiety or panic. Life has a way of taking funny turns, but if we can count on anything we can count on change. Sometimes we can even have a hand at change and that gives us hope.

[Agora1 in reply to punkster]

Hi punster, I'm sorry you are dealing with Covid again. Keep staying positive and

most of all, get well soon. xx

[punkster in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much!😊

[ssull1 in reply to punkster]

omg, im so happy to hear that, is good to know that your mental health is better now, i hope your recovery goes well, Si cuando los momentos son difíciles para mi solo pienso que antes del amanecer es cuando esta más oscuro, así que si ya logre salir una vez, puedo hacerlo de nuevo 🥺