i want to die

[tylerjjjj]

Last night i didnt sleep... i tossed and turned. i took scissors to my arm and tried choking myself. I really hate myself sometimes. I have these horrible bags under my eyes. I literally cant talk to my mom or boyfriend because they make me feel worse because they make things about themselves. I real life just think i wold be better off not here. In the past three years, i lost my car, my apartment, my grandma and multiple jobs. Now im stuck in a position I dont like with rude and nasty coworkers. my apartment is in terrible condition and looks like low income from the outside. My car drives terribly. I just feel like a bum. I know I should be thankful for what I have but I'm so tired of being stagnant and not getting anywhere. I just want my grandma back. she would make atleast one part of my life better.

[Hidden]

I am so sorry that you feel alone in your pain. You did a good thing reaching out here. There are many here, including me, who get it. Please hang in there, and dont hurt yourself. You dont have to solve all your problems today. And you arent alone.....

[tylerjjjj in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[fauxartist]

It really sounds like your in crisis, and immediate help is what you need tylerjjjj, you don't have to suffer alone, you can reach out and get help. This is a website hyperlink to a site that is for people in crisis, please check it out and I hope it can help in some way for you. I so very sorry your hurting this badly. theswordmovie.com/resources/

It’s Okay To Ask For Help

Resources for persons living with suicidal thoughts:

[CazO46]

You sound exhausted and I know that things right now might seem hopeless but nothing stays the same forever. It's ok to be grateful for what you do have while trying to make a better life for yourself . Small small steps at a time and focus on the basics making your mental health a priority. Get urgent help if you can as harming yourself shouldn't be your only option for dealing with your feelings. Take good care X

[tylerjjjj in reply to CazO46]

thank you so much

[tylerjjjj]

thank you. I just miss her so much. things will never be the same

[RaqXo]

I’m sorry to hear that. I feel stagnant as well and I totally understand that feeling. The only advice that I can give you is to keep moving forward, one step at a time. When you feel overwhelmed it is okay for you to chill out: watch a movie and relax but find time to tackle some goals later on. I’m sorry about your grandma. But I’m sure she’s guiding you though all of this.

[tylerjjjj in reply to RaqXo]

Thank you so much for this