Depression?

[pd24]

I’ve been feeling like this for a few months now, it’s been a tough year, I’ve had a very rough life growing up, parents are divorced, one of my siblings passed away when I was very young mother happened to re marry and has suffered for many years depression, suicidal tendencies and alcoholism. I have managed to get through it quite well up until now, I had up until this point put aside my social and romantic life to help my mother and take care of siblings, almost two years ago I left home for college and started feeling more alone, I started dating someone who after a year left me for someone more stable since I wasn’t enough, kind of believe this low self esteem is reason as to why, I used to fight a lot with him, he eventually found someone better but didn’t tell me so I found myself almost getting the truth out of him, after he confessed he decided to end things and now has a nice relationship with her, throughout this time my grandfather and dad passed away, he was the only person I had really let into my life and I thought he would support me but during this time he was already with this other girl, I feel pretty alone now, I really don’t have any good days and it sucks to not be able to get this bad feelings out and go back to the way I used to be, I’m kind of scared of ending up depressed and alcoholic like my mom.

Any advise on how to better the situation?

[corrine245]

I am here for you❤️ talk to me when you feeling these bad feelings attacking. I have a very similar story to you I lost my bro my parents are divorced and i am suffering bad depression on top of suicide thoughts and an attempt. I too sacrificed a big whole of my teen years to take care of my siblings I just want you to know i am sorry your relationship ended that way and you can talk to me when the world takes away a good day

[pd24 in reply to corrine245]

Thank you so much, it’s re comforting to know I’m not the only one, I would love to talk more to you about it since we happen to go through similar things, i very much appreciate it ❤️

[Dabela]

I'm sorry you've had so much pain in your life. I'm sorry you are feeling so alone too. That's one of the worst things about depression and anxiety. It can be so isolating. I'm definitely having those feelings too. If you'd ever like to talk I'm always available.

[pd24 in reply to Dabela]

Thank you! I appreciate it so much, and I reciprocate your comment, would love to keep in touch and if you ever want someone to talk to, im here as well, thank you

[cole81099]

I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that. You're a lot stronger than me. My parents are my only supporters and friends in my life, if they were to die I probably would commit suicide. But I know exactly how you feel when someone says that they're for you and then claims you're to much for them when you just want to talk. Not a lot of people understand our situation or how terrible it feels, they just judge us on our behavior and think we do it voluntarily. Idk how much longer we will have to suffer like this but I do believe God has a plan for all of us.

[pd24 in reply to cole81099]

I believe we are all strong in different ways, it was a bit hard having to see this person be all over this new girl, when it came to her meeting his family and such, which he never did with me, just goes to show I was a bit blinded by the minimal amount of support he gave me, still is hard to realize someone you care about doesn’t care much about you, just trying to get through it, and yes I also hope god has a better future for me, also for you, thank you very much

[cole81099 in reply to pd24]

Yeah I've never been in a relationship thanks to the anxiety holding me back but I've had plenty of "friends" say they're here for me and that I can talk with them any time but when it comes down to it they're to busy or I annoy them. Like I said my parents are the only ones that care about me. But I do think we will get through it. Also the same goes for me if you need anyone to talk to. Just shoot me a message.

[pd24 in reply to cole81099]

I hope that we will get passed this times, thank you so much 🙏🏼