I've been dating my boyfriend for the past 4 years, but I've known him almost all of my life. He recently got a job which requires traveling and being away for sometimes a month a time. During his recent trip, he went out with some coworkers after work and told me it would be one drink, which I knew wouldn't be true. He is a social drinker and loves beer like the rest of his family. After 3 hours he told me he was headed home. After his text, I feel asleep for an hour and woke up with no phone call or text saying he made back home safely. I tracked his phone and he was nowhere near where his house was. I was terrified, my heart sunk; the worst thoughts were racing through my head thinking he was murdered on the sidewalk and dumped by the river. I couldn't reach him for half an hour and when I finally got in contact, it was a policeman who answered his phone and told me they found him passed out drunk on a sidewalk. I was shocked but glad he was okay. I told the police the address of his house and they dropped him off. But I got no call from him when he reached his house. I stayed up late worried, calling and texting to make sure he was okay but there was no answer. I kept thinking he was dying of alcohol poisoning or choking on his throw-up. After 2 hours of worrying I called the local police and they told me a medic had checked him out before they left him. After that I had peace and finally went to sleep.
The next day, I talked to him about it and he said he didn't know how he felt so wasted after only 2 beers. He said he didn't think he ate enough (which is strange for me because I've seen him drink 6 beers like it was water). He told me he doesn't think he was drugged because he felt normal or believed he would feel different if he was. I went from being worried about him, to relieved he was alive, to disappointment in his judgment, to now numb. Depression runs in my family and although some have opted for medication, I felt I'm not quite there yet, but after this I am considering. It's been 3 days since this incident and I keep thinking how he could've died. My boyfriend feels ashamed and disappointed in himself and wants to work this out with me but I don't know if I can get over it. I feel like I'm over-reacting, but I don't know how to deal with this situation. I cry myself to sleep every night and wake up the next day going to work and feeling numb. Is it normal to feel like this?