thing aren't always so easy

[lil_avocado]

does anyone else have this problem? I'm pretty sure I'm not alone but my problem is OVER THINKING..... with everything. I have another big problem with thinking that no one loves me, wants me around, doesn't like me, is annoyed by me, and just plain out hates me. I worry so much. my anxiety is through the roof and half of it is social anxiety and the other part is just worrying that everyone is tired of me. it takes over my life and it's so frustrating. I go out of my way to keep myself in people's lives, I go out of my way to stay in contact, I go out of my way to make them like me or keep loving me. it's such a hassle. any relationship or friendship is just a hassle bc I feel like I need to keep over pushing and over trying. I just want to feel like someone truly likes me and wants me part of their life. I hate the feeling of someone not interested in me or like they don't really care what comes out of my mouth..

but through all this anxiety I still manage to try to spread positivity, love, and pure honesty on how I feel with people. I only want it back.... I love everyone. I just hope everyone in my life feels the same. I wouldn't want anyone getting tired of me. it hurts. I don't want anyone to leave.

[brokendeepinside29]

girl i no how you feel no one likes me or wants to be around me i have no friends i dont even get phone calls my life is sad

[lil_avocado in reply to brokendeepinside29]

I'm sorry you're going through that. yes, it sucks. I'm glad someone feels what I do. I worry so much, I end up over thinking and that leads sometimes to miss understanding but I try to be open minded.

and friendships are hard because barely anyone likes to keep in contact now a days. but we can totally be friends if you'd like. I'd like to talk more with someone that feels the way I do and understands a bit more. (:

[brokendeepinside29 in reply to lil_avocado]

yes we can be friends cause honestly thats what i need im such a loving kind giving person i dont no why my life has to be this way why couldnt i be the girl with the perfect life i cant control my pain tonight but i am planning to go to dr tmr as i get older i feel its gettong worse

[Hidden]

I don't think there's anything wrong with you. I think you just need to find the right kind of people that can embrace you. The other side of that coin is... are you willing to confide in the people who to embrace you? I find that people really do care a lot about me and try to keep in touch; but, I'm so comfortable with them that they don't get my priority in life.

[lil_avocado in reply to Hidden]

thank you.

[Hidden]

I love you & won't leave!!!!!!!!!!! XXX

[lil_avocado in reply to Hidden]

how sweet, I love hearing that.

I love you too!! and so happy you're here with me !💜

[Hidden]

I deal with the over thinking ALL the time! It's lovely to meet you!!! Love & Big Warm Hugs!!! XXX

[lil_avocado in reply to Hidden]

you too!