Today is one of those days where towards 2-3 pm, I am dragging myself around. I am extremely tired, frustrated, sad, disappointed, and overall... MEH! I am pretty sad is as sick as she is. I wish I could help her more. This is her nth teen time in the hospital. She is a fighter and I admire her for that. She has also had her issues with anxiety and depression. She was on meds and had to be taken off due to how far advanced her cirrhosis is. Today she was supposed to go to the psychologist and couldn’t make it. She has a lot bottled inside, but when ammonia kicks up high, she falls hard only to barely recover and be stable. Before, I would cry so much for her not to leave me, but now I am at the point I don’t want to see her suffer any longer. Ultimately, it’s in God’s hands...
I wish I had more support from friends and family. I am grateful to have found this forum and that I have my weekly counseling sessions to look forward too. I was diagnosed having pmdd and it’s hormone hell when I am close to my period. I feel as though I am going nuts. I pray God help me and others going through this. Above all, I thank God for another day to live and breathe and keeping moving. ❤️