Happy thanksgiving!!

[artisticcatowner]

Hello everybody! In this post I want to talk about how today was THE MOST Crazy Thanksgiving Day I've had.

I knew that my mom had PTSD from our family history, but I did not know it would get as crazy as it did today.

I live in the city and usually I don't do anything with my family for thanksgiving, but this year I had a lot going on so I figured I should invite my mom to kind of destress and unwind for a bit, BUT that was a crazy misconception. Me and my mom hadn't really been on the best terms ever since my parents divorced when I was 12. I am 20 now.

But I figured I might as well to try to work things out again because might as well.

I started getting panicky right before dinner. I was starting to feel uncomfortable being around my mom because it was weird seeing her be so loose around me. I told my mom I was thinking about heading out, and my mom started breaking down and crying.

Things got extremely escalated and lets just say I thought I was going to die today.

My mom started getting more and more crazy crying and then she was getting angry at me and calling me apathetic and stuff, and she was asking me questions like why I was trying to treat her so poorly. The thing is I was not at all trying to treat her poorly or be mean. But she was thinking I was her ex husband because he left her permanently.

she started talking and crying about how she almost killed herself that night when her ex husband walked out.

Anyways, while my mom gets more and more depressed and upset, she starts grabbing her purse and putting her hand near it and then THAT is the exact moment when I realized that she had bought a gun a while ago...and THATs when it clicked in my head that my mom might be in a crazy fog and she might try to either kill me or kill her with the gun that was possibly in her purse.

I got really really scared and was like oh man I might actually die today or my mom might die today.

anyways.

I diffused the situation and my mom told me she might have killed herself tonight if I hadn't of said what I said and did the things that I did.

I'm a coward in every situation in my life, but when it comes to life or death, I always fight for life.

I'm a Christian lol and I just diffused a possible suicide or homicide tonight by risking my own life.

(I risked my life because my mom totally could have shot me in her frenzy fog, but somehow God gave me words that diffused the situation.)

Anyways, thanks for listening and if you are struggling in your life right now just know that there is something called resurrection and we don't have to be afraid to die. Also, sometimes we do things that might put us very close to death, but that doesn't mean that we will die.

Also, if you're so depressed you can't get out of a situation, think about how that situation could be a lot worse, or just think about the prospect of dying and see how that makes you feel.

Ugh, I don't know what I am saying.

All I am saying is basically I almost actually died today and when it came time to die, the resurrection life in me just rose up, overcame the fear of death, brought my mother back to reality, and saved the day.

Has anyone else had an experience like this? I know that the world is crazy out there with tons of shit fuck things like people shooting each other and all that.

Honestly, I've been really scared for my life because who knows what a PTSD person could do.

I am also PTSD, I think thats why I could rise up and talk my mom out of suicide today. Love her so much.

But God is the one who loves, and if I was not a Christian, I wouldn't have a close relationship with my mom, and honestly, she could have died today.

The thing about suicide is, yes we can take our own lives if we want to. But more than likely, there is someone out there who doesn't want you to take your own life. Like we all have family. I know everybody is divorced now and also that people have become more violent, but that does not mean that we should be violent to ourselves.

Also, Jesus wants us to be happy.

And, God created the universe. And God made the universe a place for us people to be happy.

Just think about it.

We've got everything we need now a days. We got unlimited Netflix, endless bags of Doritos and furry friends to snuggle with.

PLUS, we got medication and we got illegal medication that we can also do because government isn't so strict in America.

Anyways. I know everythings always crazy so I hope you guys all find God. And Please tell me if you guys have ever gone through something like this because I am genuinely interested. Plus its good to vent during the holidays. It can get so crazy lol!

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[Shnookie]

I’m very happy that you were able to diffuse the situation and save your life and your mom’s life. HOWEVER, I am Jewish and do not believe that Jesus was the Messiah. It’s great that your beliefs give you comfort. But U also need to realize that there R a number of people on this HU website who R not Christian and have a different set of beliefs, Allah for Moslems, Buddha, etc.

Wishing U peace and serenity in your life.

[artisticcatowner in reply to Shnookie]

Yes, and just because there are people out there who are different, does not mean that I need to be quiet about my beliefs. God created us all differently.

I ALREADY DO realize that there are a crap ton of people out there with different beliefs.

Thanks

[Shnookie in reply to artisticcatowner]

The purpose of HU is to support each other. Another aspect is tolerance. As a Jew, I have met people who have tried to proselytize and convert me to Christianity. I do not come on HU to hear about religious beliefs. My beliefs R very precious to me but I believe that they should not be mentioned on HU.

[artisticcatowner in reply to Shnookie]

And why do you think that your personal beliefs should not be mentioned?

I think that depression and anxiety can stem from religious beliefs, so I think that it should be talked about on a platform like HU.

[artisticcatowner in reply to artisticcatowner]

*I think that it would be talked about because I thought it was common?

[Shnookie in reply to artisticcatowner]

My depression and anxiety do not come from being Jewish. Rather as a child of a Jewish Holocaust survivor that has caused me pain the intolerance and slaughter of millions of people starting with Jews and going onto many other

Groups of people such as Gays and. Romani - Gypsies R painful to me due to intolerance of people who Were

Different

[Isinatra]

Wow! That was an intense Thanksgiving you had. I give thanks that you’re still alive. Not good that your mom still carry’s a gun. I’ve been in life threatening situations before and what kicks in is the innate instinct for survival that all of us are born with and we can call that survival mode anything that brings us comfort.

It’s not that we don’t want to talk about our personal beliefs here, it’s because it’s frowned upon by HU and ADAA. It’s stated in both their guidelines. Along with discussing politics. Both subjects can be incendiary….turn heated, as it’s on the verge of doing now. We need to consider the sensitive atmosphere we have here and work with it and it’s members.

[artisticcatowner in reply to Isinatra]

Yes, I agree with being civil. And thanks

[Isinatra in reply to artisticcatowner]

😊

[designguy]

Wow, what a thanksgiving you had, glad you were able to diffuse the situation and prevent a tragedy. One thing you might do, if it's possible and doesn't cause another situation, is take the gun away from your mother for safe keeping, it doesn't sound like she is very stable and may try to harm herself or someone else in the future.

[artisticcatowner in reply to designguy]

Who knows lol