last year, I got into my first serious relationship - then my mental health went to hell. The Week we began dating, I started getting visual hallucinations before going to sleep, they came with extreme feelings of anxiety and an inability to sleep properly. The Doc and psyche agreed that they were caused by exhaustion.
Then I started getting depressed, had to quit a teaching prac halfway through, and still, my boyfriend wanted to stay with me. But eventually, he realized that our relationship was making my anxiety worse, and we broke up a few months ago.
We have breakfast together every week, but limit our time to that.
I was recently advised by my lecturer, pastor, friends and doctor that I needed to quit uni, and that I couldn't work either.
I've already lost so much because of this illness - I just feel like saying, screw it, I'm going to date.
But, I also feel that I would only be dragging some poor guy into a really dark world where I can't do anything, and where i constantly deal with pain and suicidal thoughts. I wanted to quit the relationship until I got better - and he'd hoped to begin the relationship again, but it seems like I won't get better for a long time. And even then, this might be a lifelong condition. So there It is; can I possibly ask him into this world of mine?