trying to let go

[tarabeth1]

Just me trying to get out of my head again. I have been journaling to try and keep myself from reaching out to him, I did text him on easter & he texted me back..for some reason my brain thinks this is a good enough reason to hope he will come back to me. All day, everyday, I struggle. I still think of him non stop. I know that I cant control him, and cant control the fact that he has left me, my only choice is to let it go..but its really so hard to do. I'm trying so hard to find the calm in myself to release all the hurt, but its such a struggle. I just want him back. period. I should know by this stage in my life, I don't get what I want. Im so hurt.

[JLH96]

I went through one of my worst break ups 2 months ago, I didn’t leave bed I cried all the time I didn’t eat and all I wanted was him. I couldn’t imagine the day I wouldn’t want him. Even 2 months later I’m thinking of him but lookin back I’m better than I was then. I’m not totally better but each day it gets better try to remain as strong as you can and know you’re not alone when it comes to struggling with a break up

[tarabeth1 in reply to JLH96]

thanks.

[fauxartist in reply to JLH96]

JLH96...you are a great inspiration...I'm so happy to hear it's getting a bit better and it will keep getting better too...glad your here sharing this.

[fauxartist]

Okay.....I have re-read all your past posts...this is an incredibly painful time for you, the situation with your mom, and now ending your past relationship. Please know my heart breaks for you tarabeth1 and I'm so sorry your hurting, your just fighting grief from all directions....it takes a lot of work and time to cope with a loss like this and to also be dealing with the grief of finding out about your mom. It's all piled up on you and your just not super human, give yourself a break....first off....get a different therapist,,,telling you to go to some site....what a jerk....sorry, that's just my opinion. You need a therapist to help you to go through all the stages of grief and loss..it's only been days if I am understanding the time frame correctly, and of course your going to be a mess....but please forgive me, but I think your grief is getting all mixed up with everything all at once, your obsessing with the boyfriend maybe because you think that can be fixed somehow, but it cannot unless he too wants this to happen, and you cannot control people places or things. You have no control over your mothers health issue as well...processing both these issues at the same time is too much for anyone. I'm glad your journalling and sharing here because every little bit of writing can help take some of the power out of the pain....even if it's just a tiny bit...and getting feedback is very healing as well....we are here for you.

[tarabeth1 in reply to fauxartist]

thank you.

[Arys]

Tarabeth i understand your feelings however someone who make you feel that way , you let you miserable...do you think he is Thr one? I do not believr so.My best advice is to let go and keep yourself busy so you do not feel the emptiness.Meet, help people...work or study...if you believe in God turn yourself to him....Move on.There is no point to hold on a relation that is not making u happy.Much love...Take care

[Hidden]

A book that really really helped me with a past breakup is called, "It's Called a Breakup because It's Broken" by Greg Behrendt and Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt. It is wise AND funny. I highly recommend you read it! Good luck in this time of change.

[tarabeth1 in reply to Hidden]

thank you