Hello, my name is Silvia. im 28 years old. i work as a court interpreter.
im not sure how my depression started. i have a great family, friends, and a great boyfriend. work can be stressful but not to the point to cause me depression and anxiety. i started taking birth control about 8 months. and i notice my mood started to change. I didn't know why, i still don't know if its because of the birth control that has caused this. i don't know how i got myself to this point. i never want to get out of bed and i always feel extremely tired. i have a feeling of guilt. i feel like there is another soul trying to take over me. I don't like this feeling at all. i don't cry as much but i feel so worried all the time. i don't want to do things i used to find pleasure in. i never want to hang out with my boyfriend, i love him so much but hanging out with him makes me anxious. i feel l can't enjoy life like i used to and im so tired of it. I want to be me again, i used to enjoy going to the gym, hiking, dancing, festivals and now it feels like almost all of that is imposible. I make up excuses to not leave my house. took me about a month to open up to my sister and mom about what is happening to me. im not on any medication, i want to beat it on my own. as of today i started doing yoga and i did feel a little better. im gong to continue to do it every morning. i usually feel the worst in the morning, so going to work its a nightmare. I thought about quitting my job but i can afford to quit my job. im glad i found this page. i know im not alone. if anyone else is going through what im going through im sorry, its such a horrible feeling and i don't wish it on anyone.