Hey,I'm new here. I've been crazy upset and exhausted recently. I consider myself a perfectionist when it comes to school and the end year tests are coming up. I'm really pushing myself too hard and it's really getting to me. It's so hard to function in class. My anxiety is so much worse than before and it's really controlling me. Can I talk about it with someone?
- Luci
I'll listen, if you'd like to talk.
I'm not sure. All the things I do are pretty important to me. And it feels like if I don't do something right something awful will happen to me.
I explained this to my girlfriend, she said that this one is what shocked her most and this one got to me the most. It's haunting to me in a way.
We did a practice test for a important one that comes up in 3 weeks. There was 42 questions on this mock and I missed five of them and I felt so horrible and shitty and I cried for hours and I was shaking Because I was terrified of what was going to happen because I missed five questions.
I didn't know what might have happened but I was convinced the teacher would get upset or something and it was just so bad for me emotionally.
Maybe. I don't want to self diagnose myself. I'm terrified of failing in school and other times it feels like the world might end if I stop or turn in anything half assed
I'm not sure, but it scares me so badly. It's an irrational fear in a way and I know that it's crazy but I forget while I'm pressuring myself to work harder.
They actually don't care about my grades, and they care more about my attitude than anything else. I haven't always been a high achiever. It really hit around 6th grade.
My heart is broken . 
Always in an inner world
running out of options
I'm contemplating starting antidepressants...
Am I on borrowed time?
