Lost husband

[Broken---]

In December 2016 I lost my husband. I was with him when he left. It was very traumatic. They ruled it as a suicide. I feel broken, empty. I now have PTSD, anxiety and panic disorders. I've seen a therapist, hypnotherapist, medium and have gotten some relief. But some days after just so awful so hard I don't know how to handle them.

[Agora1]

Broken--- I am so very sorry for your loss. xx

[Luna505]

I'm sorry for your loss. We're all here for you if you need to talk ❤

[fauxartist]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss, what can anyone say unless they have been in your shoes. This is all so very recent and the pain I can't even imagine what your feeling. Understandable that your going through all the stuff your now experiencing. I don't know if you have tried any groups yet. Group therapy with others that have had similar experiences of loss. I went to a grief and loss group therapy, it lasts a number of weeks. There is so much more to deal with when trying to wrap your head around suicide, blaming yourself though is one thing you don't want to do. Many loved ones who are left behind do get lost in the; 'only if', 'what if' , 'I should have seen this', all of it is not helpful. We just sometimes don't know. Even though our biggest question feels un-answered: 'why'. We may never know and it just leaves us feeling like we are in limbo. I have dealt with this process with my very dear friends who lost their son. All I could do was be supportive the best way I knew how. No questions, did some dishes, and just was there to listen.

[Starrlight]

So sorry

[Hippos2001]

Broken, I’m so so sorry for the death of your loved one.