I’ve been having bad anxiety since November of 2017. I started getting panic attacks about death and how I won’t be here at all. After that my death thoughts haven’t gone away. I’m frightened that my heart is going to stop and that I’m going to die at any given moment. I went to talk to a therapist for a couple of months and she told me to take lexapro. I am on 10mg. I felt better for a period of time and now I’m at the same place I was. I feel so overwhelmed and depressed, I have no excitement and joy in my life right now.. I am 18 years old and I just want my life back, i feel so hopeless and I’m looking for a cognitive therapist that can maybe help change my thinking. I’m scared of life and everything in it, I’m fearful that I will get a disease, and I’ll die at any given moment.