Irrational fear all day long for months!!

[Goingtogetbeter]

I have been dealing with irrational fears from the moment I wake up in the morning until I close my eyes at night. Having problems even talking to people knowing that they feel normal and I don’t. I am 43 years old and diagnosed with colon cancer 1.5 years ago. All my tests have been clear so far. I quit taking hydrocodone for back pain 1 year ago cold turkey. Does anyone else have fears of everything all day long? Thank you so much in advance for your input! I have tried many ssri’s from my GP and I have been seeing a therapist for 2 months. I have Twin boys and a beautiful wife of 18 years. I want to get better for them! Love them sooo much!

[Scott1951]

I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I can't imagine what it is like to have irrational thoughts all day long. Although my anxiety isn't as severe, I can have irrational thoughts, too. On really cold days, for example, I obsess about my heater, what I would do if it stopped working. It sounds like you have tried multiple SSRIs. Have you tried medications for anxiety like busbar or propranolol? How about OCD medications? Keep working with your doctor. There are a lot of medications out there to explore and new ones being developed all the time. Thanks so much for sharing and welcome to the forum.

[Goingtogetbeter in reply to Scott1951]

Thank you sooo much for your reply Scott. My therapist asked me what my triggers are. I have never before had anxiety or depression. This is all so new to me. Just wish I didn’t fear everything I never feared before. Seems like I wake up to it and stays all day😬

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Hiya don't give up, when u down think of your beautiful family. What would you say to your wife if shoe on the other foot. You gotta get better for your children, or it will screw there life's up, look at the bigger picture everyday my friend x

[jkl5500]

I am sure that everyone who has been diagnosed with colon cancer (or any other cancer) has a great deal of anxiety over it. That fear combined with having a wife and children who depend on you can produce great stress. I don't blame you for having anxiety now - you wouldn't be human if you didn't.

But when it affects your ability to function, you have to take action. It's good that you're seeing a therapist, but is he or she an MD? A psychiatrist can prescribe a med or meds that may be more effective, as that is their specialty. I'm not putting down GP's; it's just that I prefer a specialist to treat me when things are getting rough.

Be sure to tell your therapist exactly how you feel and what is bothering you. The more they know, the better they can help you get a handle on this.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

jkl5500

[Goingtogetbeter]

Thank you jkl5500!!😊

[lostgirl75]

I completely understand what your saying. I also have twin boys plus two other sons and love in fear. But I have PTSD which causes me to live in fear and social anxiety. I would suggest talking to your dr. It's been a long go for me fighting this and a struggle daily to just get out of bed.

[Goingtogetbeter]

I will pray for you lostgirl! Fear can be so paralyzing. I haul heavy equipment normally. I haven’t been able to work. I pray the fears will go away soon. I know God can help heal all of us I just don’t understand all of this😬

[howard327]

I sounds like severe anxiety to me. There is certainly good reason that you might have that given your medical condition. From my experience with anxiety I believe you should try anti anxiety meds, like lorazepam, and not ssri's. I've been on lorazepam.5mg/day for a long time that really keeps me anxiety free. By the way getting off of hydrocodone, cold turkey, could have a lot to do with your current condition Cold turkey is never a good idea, but now that you are off of it a switch to an anti anxiety med could be very beneficial. Best of luck to you!

[Goingtogetbeter]

Thank you Howard. It means so much getting more insight from people dealing with similar situation.!!

[3wooddriver]

Hi there! Ive been in your shoes. I had bladder cancer at 30 (am 40 now) and lived/live in fear all the time as well. My health anxiety and worrying has been out of control. After I was diagnosed, everything was cancer. If I had a headache, it was a brain tumor. If my stomach was upset, it had to be colon cancer. But Ive been learning to accept things as they are, trust my doctors, stay away from googling symptoms, and reading up on how to live worry free. Try the Worry Cure, it was very helpful to me. Meds can be very beneficial as well. Xanax or klonopin for short term relief or the ssris if its prolonged. Listen to your doctor and remember youre not alone. We're here for you. Hang in there!

[Derwood78]

I also have 2 year old twins and absolutely deal with irrational fears all day. I hate it and hope it ends at some point. I’ve also been on many different therapies. But it seems to go in waves. I’ll be fine and then bam! I’m in this weird freaked out depression. You’re not alone