I only want to forget what I have lived and how happy I was, I want to block those memories and never think about them never again, they only make me anxious when I try to sleep.
I have many thoughts right now that I feel I'm drowning inside. I pray to God but I always complain for what happened. If I was so happy why was it taken from me, didn't I deserve such a happiness?
Sometimes I think it's true, I'm never gonna recover, I can't live with such a loss. I want to lie myself but I can't I do love my ex and breaks my heart everything ended. I wish I had never known him
I've experienced the most amazing happiness but also the horrible sadness. I feel I was on the top, very high touching the sky and then I fell down till hell. No one can help me