A week ago I was fine. 12 years with no depression or anxiety. I was happy! I might have seen it coming six weeks because some low key physical things and a recognition that my life has changed since I retired in Sept. Then a week or so ago I had a heart palpitation episode that scared me to death. Partly because I am a former world class athlete that still works out at a pretty high level and it surprised me, and partly because it was just scary. Went for a echocardiogram and all is well...healthy heart thankfully. Blood pressure and cholesterol were a bit high and thyroid output was a bit low so I have started to take something for that....allegedly low thyroid can cause depression. All of the physical things I should be able to manage easily.
But two days after the heart episode I suddenly went in to a depression that was epic and very surprising. My wife bless her stayed with me. We saw a doctor who ordered antianxieity pills and a day later Zoloft. I woke up this morning feeling great and thought it was all over. I took first Zoloft today and I went down fast. Not sure there any kind of a correlation. I could barely move or think. I took two antianxiety pills and right now can function. Very concerned that tonight will turn out like night before last....basically curled up in a ball hugging my wife. I need to get out of this!!!! People love and need me but I when things are bad, I am scared that I will not get out again. Also scared of it reoccuring
Will someone who is on Zoloft weigh in and let me know if the start of it was like and what it has been like for you? Were you able to get off of it and be completely normal happy again like I was for 12 years?