My depression came back.

[UkyoCoanccy]

I thought that everything was going better. I felt that way. My anxiety was no difficult to deal with and I felt myself again. I felt emotionally strong again.

But right now, I just couldn't stop tinking and thinking.

I feel bad because I have almost a year dealing with my anxiety and depression, but when I go 1 step forward for my recuperation then suddenly I go 2 steps back.

I also was thinking that I have about a month since the last time that I talked with my case worker. That lady that try to give my tools to manage my depression and anxiety. She had to call me once a week but for any reason the las 2 times I had to called her back because she never did it, even though she said that she did. Then, when it happen again, I just did not call back.

That tools did not helped me so much any way. I still felt almost the same.

Also, I was thinking how difficult is to deal with my kid. He was diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety disorder. Now he is 14. A difficult age. I have to help him to cope with his emotions. But a lot of times when he makes it hard, I just give up and I let him be.

I can't deal with both (him and me), at the same time. I am letting him behind, and that hurts a lot. I try, but most of the time I can't.

I wonder, if I am forcing myself to use the strategies for my depression and anxiety, why do I feel the same. Inside I feel the same.

What am I doing wrong.

Or probably that feelings are not going to disappear?

I do not know. I feel, sad and hopeless.

What do you do? Are these bad feelings going to disappear?

This is how I am going to live forever. ? How do yo deal with this things?

[BrainIsFull]

Hi. I find that depression/anxiety symptoms come and go. I had had some years where my symptoms were under control. Right now it has become harder for me. I attribute it to Corona shit. I also have a teenager and a pre-teen. That can be difficult even in the best of circumstances. I also have lots of guilt that I am probably not doing a good job of being a pare3. Then it is helpful to talk it through with my therapist who points out my overly self-critical thinking. She points out everything that I have done well.

I have no doubt that things can improve for you and me! Remember that feeling hopeless is part of depression/anxiety. Our brains tell us this but that doesn't mean that it is accurate! We have both had episodes of remission and we will again!💚💚💚

[UkyoCoanccy in reply to BrainIsFull]

Thank you.And what do you think?

Is this going to be like this forever?

I mean, we are on medication.

We are using the strategies to deal with our problems. And are going to feel like this forever.? With ups and downs even though we tried to change?

Sorry

I feel sad. That is why I am trying to find answers.

[BrainIsFull in reply to UkyoCoanccy]

Of courseno one can say for sure. I tend to believe that depression/anxiety can't be "cured" but we can gain many insights that help us to better cope with our situation. We can learn to accept our illness and I think once we stop fighting it, things get so much easier. But acceptance can't be forced. I have seen in my own life that continuing to move forward, get help, and just take the next step in my life I end up closer and closer to a kind of life that I want to live. So it is getting better. But it's slow progress and there are still ups and downs.

There is hope.💚 Keep going!

[Hidden]

Sometimes you have to take one day at a time, one hour at a time. Do you or your son take any medications? I know how no one wants to see a psychiatrist because of the stigma, but some of the newer psyche meds really do help. Seeing a good therapist once a week can be very helpful too. I happen to have bipolar disorder, it isn't easy to deal with, but I am on some very good medications now and I feel much more at peace and less moody. Don't give up hope that things can get better. Try to be there for your son. Ages 12, 13, 14 are tough years , a lot of bullying goes on in middle school. A good book I would recommend to anyone with kids your son's age is a book the popular singer Demi Lovato put together. She had ADHD and later on was diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder herself . The book is titled Staying Strong, She has on every page a famous quote by someone and then she writes what she thinks about it and how she interprets it. I bought it for myself and it's a great book! Good luck to you!!!💖

[UkyoCoanccy in reply to Hidden]

ThanksAnd the answer about the medicine y "yes".

My kid have about 5 years on medications.

I only have a year and a half on medication.

My psychiatrist have been increasing some meds and giving me or changing me others.

But my question is always the same, I will be feeling like this my whole life even though I am on medication and forcing myself to do my everyday activities?

What do you think?

[Hidden in reply to UkyoCoanccy]

I think the only sure thing is change. It seems like you're feeling overwhelmed. There is always hope.