struggling

for the past 3 months i've really been struggling with my mental health. i've been super anxious, with physical symptoms such as heart racing, headaches, tingly limbs, shaking, nausea, sweating, trouble breathing. it's been really hard for me. i just want to feel better. i was hospitalized for 3 days last week because i just couldnt handle it anymore. i started zoloft 50mg and it's been hell. my anxiety has hardly gotten better and now im having more depression and crying spells. i've also been having derealization. like nothing around me feels real and i don't feel real and it's really strange. i've also been awake for 24 hours because my anxiety just wont let me sleep. im frustrated. i just feel alone sometimes.

[Danzdanz123]

Hey you are not alone at all, I’ve been experiencing it really bad since April and it just feels like I’ve blacked out the whole time well done for taking medication something that I can’t do! Look at yogi bryan on YouTube or tik tok he makes me laugh whilst taking deep breaths, your body is going through repressed trauma nothing can happen and if it does it’s really not as bad as you would think, what I’ve noticed is anxiety stops you from experiencing things other than it’s self, which makes you feel so isolated, so sorry you are going through this I know how hard it is.

[Danzdanz123]

also crying just keep crying I’ve found it helps sometimes it Might make me anxious if I cry before the anxiety but just keep crying it’s a good sign you are feeling your emotions and when we cry it means we are releasing the pain it’s ok to cry I cry everyday now even if it’s just for a second

[Hidden in reply to Danzdanz123]

i've been crying for like 1-2 hours almost every day, i feel like it does make me feel better afterwards though

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Hidden]

Yeh honestly keep doing it I let myself cry now there’s nothing wrong with it I actually feel some relief in it because im releasing my emotions that have built up, the crying will reduce I promise as I’m not crying as much now! The physical symptoms you are feeling are actually your minds way of trying to proctect itself what I do is grab a pillow and hug it, I listen to yogi Bryan on Tik tok and then I write my worries down but then turn it into something positive, honestly I have been to hell and back these past couple of months I could barely move off the couch because everything felt titled like the earth had fallen side ways ( derealisation) I just wanted to close my eyes all the time cause every second of the day was painful it’s reduced alot now it’s still difficult but using those techniques like breathing journaling listening to success stories on YouTube has helped!

[Hidden in reply to Danzdanz123]

i have derealization as well. it sucks. i just want to sleep all day so i dont have to face it. i know it takes time to get better but sometimes i just wish i could have an instant fix

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Hidden]

Yeh I’m like that but then sleeping all day will make me feel weird so I just look forward to night time before I can sleep! Derealisation is the scariest symptom for me I’d say!! I know how you feel I’m always looking for an instant fix I’ve been through this before I think the harder you push yourself the quicker you will get better but sometimes patience is the best thing

[IncognitoC]

de1sey , your not alone. Plenty of people here who are going through similar issues to you. I’ve found this site so helpful knowing that I can share my experiences and thoughts without being judged.

[Hidden]

You’re not alone for sure and everything you mentioned I’m experiencing with anxiety . I’m suffering through this horrible dark cloud …of feeling so down for the past few months also . It feels comforting knowing that other people here who go through the same thing really understand and care! We can give support for each other during our difficult times. We just need to keep pushing through and believe that this will pass! Hugs -Shay

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Hidden]

And it will pass even if it’s just for moment and those moments are very precious!

[Hidden in reply to Danzdanz123]

Very true! But when we’re in the moment it seems like it’s forever and not going to go away!-Shay

[Pitalife]

I too go through these same symtoms I have bipolar depression, it's bouts of intense energy like overwhelming then bouts of just my mind telling my body to lay down,then I get manic episodes n mood swings,been long 60yrs trying to deal w it since I'm a child....it's very hard n disabling to me,now I been having stomach issues,feel nauseous very bad w No appetite...I take 60mg of duluxotine and it's seems it was helping for Lil while...I hope you can find good Dr.its very tough....

[Spooky99]

Omggggg you’re the first person I’ve seen that wrote derealization! I feel this way a lot!!! I’m 55! What is this. I’m scared to death lately

[Hidden in reply to Spooky99]

i hate it so much it literally feels like im in a first person video game or something. i've had this feeling nearly every day for the past 2 months

[Spooky99 in reply to Hidden]

When I have an anxiety attack I feel this way! I smoked pot and was never the same! I was not in reality. This was 86. I self medicated with alcohol. I’ve been sober over 20 yrs. I feel I have no choice., I want to drink or die. I’m so tiered of this

[HisChild4ever]

I'm so sorry you are going through so much! Medications can be very helpful, but some people experience more side effects than improvement of their symptoms and it becomes necessary to make changes. Also, some medications can take many weeks to have full effect on us. Maybe you already know all that, but I would like to recommend to continue to try to get better and to never give up. I'm very sorry about how much you suffer every day! People have told you that you are not alone and I want to tell you that that's true. You are not alone. It's very unfortunate, but there are a lot of people who suffer pain and loneliness in their hearts. I wish life was not that way, and I've had years when things did not make sense to me. But even now, when I feel intense despair I talk to God a lot and I listen to Christian worship music and it helps to think that there is a God who listens. I believe that therapy could be helpful, but sharing here is a good idea too and I hope that you feel encouraged. I hope that everything improves a lot in your life soon.