I. Have a son i experienced abuse with his father he was hard on me i left and met someone else i told him where i was coming from , from the start of that relationship he controlled where i went what u did and i had no space but i took it as him caring cause i just wanted to get over my past abuse and show my baby father that i could have someone care for me, we dated for two years i mostly stayed home from every event because of the new guy cause i thought by wanting to do my own thing would cause conflict. We got married the day before Valentine's day on a saturday and then Monday morning he hit me in my face now it hasnt stopped since then and we have been together for 10 years now. He still controls me i dont get space free time or anything. I have received a broken nose, permanent scares to my face 90 percent of this abuse happened infront of my son and stepson, now i been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and he diesnt think its anything
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You need to run away from him. You do not deserve that! No woman does! I wish you the best of luck. Stand strong for yourself! Peace for you! XXX
Also your children deserve better! XXX
Thank u anxiety 59 that's so hard to do since my family expects me to remain happily married they are worried how bad it will look plus the fact that he is nice to them and takes care of me but they dont care about the price i have to pay for that
You have to place yourself first along with your children. Your family doesn't live with him , do they? I can't tolerate abuse, we deal with enough! Please get the help you need, reach out to a women's crisis center. I'm very concerned for you! XXX
Thank u so much especially since u are going through your own and still want to be here for me
That's what I'm here for , any way I can help you I promise I will! XXX
Hi Keedz
Well done for opening up here I know how hard this must of been for you but this is your first day to the start of your recovery...
My heart really goes out to you it really does but you do not deserve to go through all of this like Anxiety _59 says no woman should have to put up with this under any circumstances that's for sure.. your journey put a tear in my eyes because I was like your child I seen it all and believe me it's just as damaging as now I'm so messed up it effects my everyday life I'm very jumpy I have nightmares I'm a nervous wreck..
I was brilliant for years so bubbly and outgoing then one day I woke up and I've never been the same since..
Your depression and anxiety is expected with the physical and emotional abuse you have suffered you don't deserve to be put through this much pain and your family obviously don't know the real him because I'm sure they would have a complete different approach to him..you have put up with so much it's time to now take care of you...your a beautiful girl and mum who has not had no life through abusive men you've sacrificed so much and you've only had abuse in return he's done this to you for so long don't let him have your future do it for your son and for you and your sanity you are worth far too much to have to just put up with this awful abuse. I'm here if you need me stay strong
Love Nat x
You know what hurts me the moat the fact that he doesnt understand what i am going through, he prefers to find ways to blame me at 33 i am the saddest most broken person i wonder at times am i the cost of it, what am i not doing right
It's not you, please see that. Abusive people like to put the blame on others and not take responsibility for what they have done, they are living in denial! XXX
Anxiety 59 i try to tell myself that sometimes but he always finds my errors and point them out so am just always back at square one, i think my biggest fear is letting go cause i am afraid of what everyone will say
It doesn't matter what anyone says, what matters most is you, please see that! I'm here for you! My heart is aching for you. I want to help you so badly! XXX
Some days i dont kno why i woke up so unhappy and why i have to go through the rest of the day, i wan to just get on a bus and keep driving just to clear my mind i' m a mess, i just dont wan to hurt myself cause i kno it wud affect my kids
Once again , you need to put yourself first , if not how can you be good for anyone else? Be strong, I believe you can do this as scary as it might be, the end result , if you leave you will find peace and strength! XXX
I have no where to go presently but i am trying
Nat i am so worried that my leaving will affect my stepson more as he is reserved and quit at times and i am the only one he opens up to, my son has gone to live with his dad in canada
Keedz I'm sure if you asked him he would pick you I do understand though babes how you have put your stepson first that's how loving and caring you are I'm sure he hates his father hitting his mum could you not take him too...I know it's easy for me to say and it is because your in that situation and I'm not it's just so hard for you to get out of it took my mum 25 years to get out of her abusive marriage but please don't put yourself through anymore you will find happiness but in order for that to happen you have to get away from your unhappiness..with you having anxiety and depression now it's only going to get worse if you stay in the environment it started in
Love Nat
I try to het everyone to understand that home is suffocating me they jist think i want to leave. I would take my stepson with me anytime but its not my decision his father will be the one who makes it and he wont give me that privilege
Keedz me and Hidden want to help you the best we can
Have you heard of this crisis centre below.
Address: 18 Ripon Road, Kingston 5
Phone: (876) 929-9038
Fax: (876) 926-9418
Email: w.i.crisiscenter@cwjamiaca.com
Open: The services provided by Woman Inc. are not only "day-to-day' – but a 24-hour operation (Kingston only) as it relates to the provisioning of counseling. It operates Monday - Friday, 9:00 am - 5:00 pm.
Contact: President
Phone: (876) 968-5999
Fax: (876) 926-3091
Email: w.i.crisiscenter@cwjamiaca.com
They provide a protected crisis centre for women like yourself are you in Kingston honey
Nat
Keedz there's also this one who also offers 24hr shelter and counselling which you will benefit from.
The main office address is 7 Denehurst Avenue, Kingston 10. Contact numbers are:
(876) 929-9038, Fax: 926-3091,…… e-mail: w.i.crisiscentre@cwjamaica.com
Woman Inc Mission Statement
Thank u guys so much, i tried counselling and i had to stop as it was too expensive
With this one counselling comes with the crisis shelter so it should be free I hope this helps you in anyway we are here if you need us
Let us know how you get on please
Love Nat x
You have to get away from him, your nobodies punch bag, married or not, you need to leave xxx
I have pd and bipolar and Medes don,t worl
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