I married my high school sweetheart and was together 25 years. We divorced because I met somebody whom I fell totally in love with. We were together 10 years until he left me. I can’t seem to get over him. He was and is my world. I don’t feel I have anything left now. The rejection is too much. I’ve tried suicide twice. I think mostly to get attention. Deep down I don’t really want to die, I just want this awful pain to go away. He moved out of my house 3+ years ago but didn’t officially end it til August. I am very lonely and come across as obsessive toward him. He has blocked me in every way except email. Now it’s to the point he rarely responses back with that. I am devastated and it doesn’t get better with time. It gets worse. I’ve tried medicine to help with depression and anxiety, I’ve tried therapy for 3 years, I’ve joined activity groups, joined a gym, plowed into my job even but nothing has helped me. I am severely depressed, scared and very alone.