So, my pipes froze and the plumbers have been here for hours in my disgusting, messy house and I'm so ashamed. My husband and I used to argue all the time about chores and I've been trying to practice radical acceptance about the house not being clean in order to have a less fighty marriage, but the only way I can tolerate it is if we don't have visitors. I couldn't clean before they came because there was no water. So many of my buttons are being pushed right now and I'm beating myself up for living like this. I hate that they don't know we have mental illnesses and probably just think we're lazy and disgusting. I just want to crawl under a rock and expire. I was feeling really down anyway today, and then this happened. My DBT skills are just not cutting it and all my friends are asleep. I'm so ashamed.