Hi everyone. I’m constantly worried about my future. I wake in the morning with horrible anxiety, many times I can’t get back to sleep. My mind always worries about every little thing that can possibly go wrong. I live alone and other than people at work I have no friends. I never been married or have any children. Throughout the years I lost touch with most of the people in my life, even family members. I always had bad anxiety being around people, believing that I’m being judged negatively and this has caused me to push them away. Avoidance has played a big roll in my life. I’ve allowed anxiety and depression to control my thoughts and actions. My girlfriend Kathy passed away over seven years ago and since then I’ve become more isolated. I miss her so very much, she too suffered from depression so we supported each other.
I have thoughts of suicide if my life continues this way. I’m on meds, Xanax and Celexa. And I just started seeing a therapist.
Please can somebody help or is anyone going through something similar?
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