I found some courage!!!

Hello everybody! I hope you’re all having a good day today and if you’re not I hope you know you can share your feelings here and that you’re never alone x

I have a little life update for whoever is interested lol... even if nobody is I still like to share my thoughts and feelings on here x

Due to my physical health, depression and anxiety, ever since I left education at the age of 18 I wasn’t able to continue with a Career or further education .

My depression crippled me at the age of 18 for roughly 3 years and after that I had severe social anxiety. I’ve always been disappointed in myself for not being ‘able’ to do anything in life as I knew I had potential and passion.

Well today after 10 years I HAVE ENROLLED ON TO A COURSE!!! It is the first step towards my journey of doing something for myself and reaching my full potential! I start in a few days!!!!

I hope I do not bail!!! This time I am actually excited... I’m also really scared and nervous!

Wish me luck!!!

[daisy-17]

Well done good luck go smash it

[Hidden in reply to daisy-17]

Thank you!! I’ll try !

[daisy-17 in reply to Hidden]

You got this just believe in yourself

[Hidden in reply to daisy-17]

Aw thank you x you’re so sweet x how are you today? Been up to anything nice? X

[daisy-17 in reply to Hidden]

No much just cleaning and stuff doing mummy duties. Had a good day yesterday had a Halloween party with my family just love Halloween lol you had a good day ?

[Hidden in reply to daisy-17]

Oooh did you dress up ?

I had a quiet day today ... I went for a walk and enrolled and then after that just did a few chores and been relaxing watching a Netflix series x

[daisy-17 in reply to Hidden]

No didn't dress up I know boring me ha just the kids we all have a good time though. Love netflix think am addicted to it lol. Are you in the uk?

[Hidden in reply to daisy-17]

Me neither lol but I love the movies and all the sweets lol !

I’m definitely addicted to it !

Yes I’m in UK .. what about you?

[daisy-17 in reply to Hidden]

Oh yer me to yes am in uk I live in liverpool. I see you want to be a social worker and help kids that's a lovely thing to do hope you succeed x

[Hidden in reply to daisy-17]

Thank you x. I live in the north of England too x

[Starrlight]

Such a great step to take. Hope I am excited for you!

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Aw thank you Starrlight! I’m so scared but happy for myself too! X

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

It will be easier than it seems right now is what I think.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I hope so ... I really hope they don’t do that thing where you have to stand up and introduce yourself at the beginning 😳 Thats what I’m dreading at the moment ...

Also I’m known for bailing last minute 🤞🏽

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

A few years ago I decided to go back to school. I prepared everything and I had a lot of anxiety and I bailed. I am determined to get back to classes at some point. I think we both can do it! What course are you thinking of taking?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I really hope you’re able to do it x I know how it is ... I’ve even bailed half way through a course once (I actually hate thinking about that because was such a waste of time and money...disappointed)

Social work x I want to work with youth/kids x that’s my big goal in life x

I’ve done a big plan for the next year and it all leads to that goal x I want to help kids before they reach adulthood x

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

So very awesome Hope! That’s really exciting! Best to you. ❤️

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

You are such a good person that you know God will bless this awesome & worthy effort. Let me know when you are starting. I have strong shoulders for my true friends and I will help you fight your way through anything. Especially something as worthy as that goal! Our whole community is behind you all the way on this!!!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Aww wow thank you so much support means everything to me! X

Yes I’ve always wanted to do it but wasn’t able to . I suppose now is the time xx

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

There's no time like the present! Especially with all the love and supprt you have here to help you!

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

Girl, you let me know when you're getting ready to return. I will be with you through every single class you take! My heart and love will protect you from any fear and struggle you have with this worthy cause. I will walk beside you every step of the way! My word on it!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Thank you so much!!!

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

You bail and I'm gonna come and drag you right back in there! You need this!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Lmao can you actually just come and and drag me there for real haha. Got a reminder text today about the class yesterday and just dreadddding it

[Agora1]

WOW Hope, what a great saying...

Thanks for sharing. I appreciate you xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

💕 x

[Hidden]

Wonderful news hope, congratulations, and well done, what a great achievement..

💕💕 good luck 🍀 xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Olivia x 💕

[Catwoman2018]

Good luck Hope! Sending you lots of good wishes and stay strong. x

[Hidden in reply to Catwoman2018]

Thank you so much Catwoman x it means a lot x 💪

[pink83737]

Yay!!!

[Hidden in reply to pink83737]

Yaaaaay

[JEG325]

By golly, I'll walk you to the damn class myself if I have to! I love that your doing this. I was feeling down and so I did the one thing I knew would help. I went back to see my friends & my beloved counselor Moriah, who runs a class called storytime. She reads classical children's stories to us and we all love it. I needed to do that as inane as it sounds. She's reading 'The Wizard Of Oz' and she makes it come alive with her special abiity to read. The point is, I didn't wanna go because I was depressed and it was a gloomy, rainy day. My friends insisted that I needed to go and literally dragged me back there. I am so happy they did. I felt 10 times better by the time I left....You need to get out and make new friends. I will be there with you heart and soul when you start this new journey. You can count on it!!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Wow that’s amazing! I’m so glad you’re feeling better!

Well I’ll be starting on Saturday hopefully! For now I’ve decided on just doing weekends because my husband has said he wants to support me while I do is so I’m less likely to give up lol 🤞🏽

I really do need to make some new friends so I’m hoping I will. This is just the beginning as I’ve been out of the game for so long . Have to start somewhere!

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

Absolutely. We will all support you, especially me. You need your husband's love and support to do things. 'For better or worse, in sickness and in health'. I've always found those words so beautiful. Enjoy the love in your life and the friends and support on this site. Call on me if you need, That's an order!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Thank you I’ll tell you how it goes xx

[LovelySnow]

Love this quote, love hearing this news!! You rock, Hope4321! 😄🌸

[JEG325 in reply to LovelySnow]

You rock too, LovelySnow!

[LovelySnow in reply to JEG325]

😄 Well thanks, JEG325! 🌸

[JEG325 in reply to LovelySnow]

It's true. I follow your replies and see what you do. You are always being loving, sweet and encouraging. That's why I added you to my personal hand written list of friends on here!

[LovelySnow in reply to JEG325]

Oh goodness, well that's quite kind of you, JEG. I try to be those things - people are always more than what you see so I try to be kind.

[JEG325 in reply to LovelySnow]

Everyone compliments me for caring and reaching out to as many people as I am physically and mentally able to. Truth be known, I studied this site for a few days before I joined in. It was everybodies love and support on here that encouraged me to become who I am. People like you keep me motivated and continuing to try hard to help as many as i can!

[Hidden in reply to LovelySnow]

Thanks! So do you!!!! 💐

[LovelySnow in reply to Hidden]

Aww, thanks, Hope4321! Have a good day! 🌸

[Hidden]

Well done and good luck..I'm 43 and I took up a culinary course this year which ends in a couple of months and am glad I did it..I must admit, I did feel like giving up half way through cause of this illness but I pulled through..I'm happy for you!..good luck!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you x Well done to you too!!! X

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

ellinaki, you're a true hero to a lot of us. I am returning for classes twice a week now to City Gospel. Though my depression tried to keep me home yesterday, my friends came and got me anyway. They refused to take no for an answer. Boy, were they smart. Seeing my friends, taking my 2 classes and seeing my beloved counselor Moriah, busted the (hell) out of my depression. Sometimes those things we fear the most actually turn out to be the antidote we needed. Keep up the good work!!

[NCAQuilter]

You are great! It takes real courage to do this.

I've been is situations you fear. Scared the s... out of me, until I found a work around. I wanted to be the best tax preparer I could be. Here, in America, we have a special designation for the highest level of tax preparers, called Enrolled Agents. Enrolled Agents are enrolled by the Internal Revenue Service, and prepare Federal taxes and taxes in any state. To become an EA, one must take a 16 hour test, given only in the middle of September, and graded on a bell curve. The test covers every kind of federal tax return. Most people take a class offered during the summer, three months and at least 90 hours. There is no credit given. It only prepares one to take the test. The 'test' is the EA test - pass or fail!

I had not been diagnosed with depression or social anxiety yet, but had the support of my husband and daughter, both EA's. The first day, there were several people standing around waiting for the classroom to open. I looked for someone standing alone, and approached her. My hands were visibly shaking! In the best voice I could manage, which was quite squeaky, I told her I was uncomfortable in crowds, and could I stay beside her? Gloryoski! She was uncomfortable, and was actually ready to leave. Each class after that, we were together. We both finished the class, and passed the test.

Since then, I've done the same thing: explaining my situation, asking for help. I haven't been turned down yet. Being the first one there helps a LOT, too.

Hopefully this idea may spark other ideas to help you get up those first few steps. In our minds and hearts, we are all with you, pushing, pulling, carrying you through this. You can count on us!

[Hidden in reply to NCAQuilter]

Wow such an inspirational story x thanks for sharing x

[Agora1]

Hi Hope, I still come back to this saying every day. It's so true

for the anxiety ridden person. We start projecting so far down

the road that it stops us from taking that most important FIRST STEP...

Again, I thank you for sharing that. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

♥️ I’m so happy it helps you xx

[Hidden]

Thank you 🙏🏼

[Sillysausage234]

🧁😃....missed this hope you are ok

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

All the support on this is so great🥰🥰🥰

(Still struggling with chest infection. bad days and good .. ) how r u

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Sorry to hear that Hope...wishing you well soon. xx

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

Oh no you poor thing 🤔😬...not that I think you’re a thing ..haha ...you might’ve caught it off me ...hope it settles soon mate ...I’m ok bronchitis is back right on cue but hey ho I’m on top of it 😤I think ...nice post as per ....missed this must’ve been asleep 😴🤪take care hope you are posting another post soon ....hope love post you know we all love jumping aboard to spread joy happiness and cake 🍰 to each other x..p.s the usual suspects on here but we’ve lost cat woman somewhere not seen her for ages have been wondering about her...#..where is cat woman?

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

I have bronchitis myself right now. Yours is on cue huh? You get it a lot? Well I can’t imagine going through this a lot. I also hadn’t had trouble with asthma since teen years but now it’s back. I cough and wheeze at night, I am using my kids nebulizer machine so I can breathe. Fuuuuuun

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

unfortunately I have c.o.p.d so it’s like Groundhog Day for me ...haha how did you find this 😁🙃...hope likes seeing her old posts pop up again

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Awww poor 🙃 c o p d huh ... 😞

Yeah it just popped up in the feed.

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

Well I’m glad you’re finally awake to appreciate my masterpiece posts 😏

Yeah I’m a wreck health is shambles but it is what it is.

Hope u feel better soon

Have u heard from Cat woman? Hope she’s well

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

helloooooo no cat women heard from arty Elliott though .....yes loved this year old classic hope love post ....like a time machine ....going back 12 months 😊...we’re still here ✊😃....baked any cakes 🧁?...get well soon

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I’m sorry I hope you heal very soon Hope. (((((((((Hope))))))))) ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Xx

[gerrerd]

Well done, put your mind on the outcome you want and you will succeed xxx

[Starrlight]

How did that class go a year ago? I still like the saying ... the first step