Things about my depression and anxiety and self harm...

[Slimmkimmm]

For quite a few years now I’ve struggled with depression and I’m an introvert so that makes things harder when it comes time to talk about them. And 2 years back I developed really severe anxiety especially because of a bad relationship I was in and because of a sexual assault I was going though to deal with by two people I thought were my friends. So dealing with what the court would do and the rumors the guys spread saying I wanted it I developed a habit to also self harm which I’ve done previously before then. And it had gotten worse to where I’d cut everyday I went to alternative school and was going to therapy place so I had to do school online. I lost weight and looked sick. Recently I hadn’t had a job for 3 months due to an anxiety attack that lasted 2 hours almost non stop so o was taken to a hospital even tho my mangers said I wasn’t aloud to leave seeing how I was a shift leader at the time. After that I never wanted to leave the house it traumatized me that it happened so bad like that now I’m able to leave alone and haven’t had one and learned coping skills from therapy but the depression and self harm has risen yet again but I don’t wanna go to someone because the last time I tried to commit suicide I was locked in the in patient place that I was going to therapy at and I hated it there. I struggle on a daily basis of my emotions that come so fast it’s hard to deal with all of them at once. I have many people who care for me especially my boyfriend but I don’t talk it out. Recently me and my bf have been fighting a lot and I let anger take control though I shouldn’t I can’t keep it down and after I slipped up and cut I want to do it even if I’m not mad I just feel like a deep part of me wants to punish for everything that’s gone wrong lately

[blackcat64013]

Thank you for sharing what's is a stressful time for you.

We can give you all the time you need to work through your pain.

Without seeing mental health professional, a great way to help you come to terms with your situation is through journaling. If you maintain a daily journal that you put all of her thoughts, anguish, pain, and joy into, the act of writing can take away the pain and leave you feeling in a much better place. Write about anything that comes to mind.

Keep the lines of communication open with your support network especially your doctor.

I hope you will find the strength and support needed to take that step back into the world you feel comfortable in. .