My latest post.

I really try not to leave post after post on here like daily, all I want to say is this site is the main thing keeping me from doing something stupid right now like cutting myself or making some kind of suicide attempt. I wish my family was more supportive but sadly it's more like they drive me to anger and tears. And I was considering not being friends with my ex anymore, now I just feel like he's all I've got. I'm so tired of being broke and being thought of as mentally ill. I'm really crying right now. I hate psychiatrists, why the hell do I have to see one my entire life???? This is no way to live. So many people just don't understand. I want to break out of this situation I'm in, and I don't know how to do it. I'm hanging on by a thread.

[Agora1]

Googoodollsfan, write as many posts as it takes to keep yourself safe and sane. You are going through a tremendous time of your life. We're all here to support you emotionally

the best we can. I'd like to see things turn around for you. You deserve to be happy and to be taken care of. It's hard for us who haven't been in your position to understand but know

that we still care and hope that you are given that break you need so desperately.

When times get this tough, you have to do what you have to in order to survive. If it means

being friends with you ex long enough to get back on your feet and keep you from being

homeless, then you may have to do that. I don't know what your relationship was like with

him before.

I care about you, sending you a gentle hug and whispering the words "do not give up on yourself" xx

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Thank you Agora. I'd like to see things turn around too but I'm just floundering in a downward spiral. I need to be able to hold down some kind of job and I really want and need a car again. I've had a lousy day, my family won't really talk to me, I'm being frozen out.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry your family is treating you this way. After all, we all need that break in life in order to start over again. Of course the job comes first since having a car comes with

many expenses to keep it up. xx

[Hidden]

No one is "broke",we r all just alittle "bent" here.You have all of us n we will help raise u up,ur not alone.Take it a minute at a time n love ur self every minute that passes.Sending a gentle hug ur way.🤗

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[bonkers65]

You post as many posts on here as you want. I hope things get better for you.

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Thank you, you too.

[gerrerd]

Everything changes in life remember that, start listening to Dr Wayne W Dyer find his video,s on youtube,

[Hidden]

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Thanks Brig. Being able to hold down a job is so important. And if you can't do it, you're just totally screwed. I want to work but I seem to mess up eventually at whatever I try. I don't know what I'm living for, just to be constantly broke.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

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[Hidden]

I will try to look up that song on YouTube, that's one I'm not familiar with and I know a lot of music. I am so sorry to hear that you were homeless as a child, that is really rough!!! I am a 50 year old woman barely surviving on disability and Medicare and Medicaid. I had a job opportunity about 2 weeks ago that I reluctantly passed on that was at a large retail store and the news was saying how all these hospitals are getting filled to the max with Covid patients and I just thought it would be best to stay safe and I know how all the layoffs come in February usually. I was in a homeless shelter only for one night over a year ago, it wasn't really a shelter, what they do is make everyone leave to wander around during the day and then you come back at 5pm to take a breathelizer test and then they drop you at a nearby church with volunteers where you stay overnight. I was so shocked to see some young children there and a mother with a baby. I'm a 50 year old woman and I never had kids because I knew I couldn't support them but I still like kids, at least nice ones, not mean ones. I don't think my parents care about me at all anymore, there is always this condition or that condition to their so called love, they just want to die in peace, they think I'm too much trouble. I'm at an age where I really need to have my shit together and I feel like I'm just a dreamer, and things have gone from bad to worse. I never hold down jobs for longer than 2 years, don't know why I'm such a mess. Thank you for responding to my post.

[Hidden]

Great song!!!!! Thank you.🙂