Uncertain to admit a problem

[uncertainv]

Hi,

I am 30, have a good job, loads of friends and high self esteem- I live a great life. I know this but I am sure i still have depression- it is just hard to understand the scale of it or I feel like I am ‘moaning’ when I hear and see the severity of other stories. I am so good at pretending everything is fine nobody has a clue, they think I am the most together person they know. Everyone comes to me with their problems. But I’m reality I am sad and tired and lonely and I use alcohol and cocaine alone all the time and feel

I’m getting nowhere in life and everything is out of reach. I don’t know what I want and I just want to sleep all the time or run away and travel. It’s very up and down though sometimes I’m fine and I think I need to just be grateful

And get on with things. But I don’t have the motivation to really do anything I want.

[guynfl2chat]

Hi, pretending is not good. You are truly not happy. You can surround yourself with money and people and still miserable. Something in your life is not satisfying. Are you being someone that you are not? Are hiding something from others? This type of behavior can make you depressed and anxious. Its like always being on.. when you need to turn it off around friends. Don't feel bad for turning for help! We are all here for some reason.

[gogogirl]

Could you be tired or stressed? I hope also that you can consult a PCP at least to rule out anything physical. What kind of work do you do? I am here, and you do not have to compare yourself to anyone else. The good news is that you do not sound impulsive so you might think about running but you are not.