I am so frustrated angry sad irritated I don’t want to do this anymore I really don’t I’ve lost hope I’m close to just throwing in the towel and just idk. I don’t see any light of this getting better. My family is going on a vacation and I can’t even go because they don’t know how to handle me if I have a panic attack and freak out or have an episode of fear and they are just as frustrated as me that they don’t know how to help me. I want to drive again I want a fucking job I want to feel better. I want to know how to stop feeling like this I don’t even have any good days anymore it’s so frustrating I’m tired of going to bed between 4am to 6am and waking up between 12pm to 2pm not even good sleep. Tired of these sensations I get. The psychiatry appointment today was a joke in my book. I don’t have a positive attitude anymore when everything looks and feels so dark and I feel so alone. I also don’t get how anyone else has gotten through this or actually felt like this. Why tf do I gotta do this all over again and feeling worse then I ever had before.
I’m tired of the fear that randomly hits me.
Tired of the heart palpitations
Tired of the funky stomach
Tired of my brain not working right
This may be tmi but tired of the weird tingling balls I get
Tired of my chest feeling funky
Tired of crying
Tired of nothing helping
Tired of the weird prickly feeling
Tired of feeling like I’m crazy
Tired of this dark cloud
Tired of feeling sick
Tired of gagging and dry heaving
Just tired of trying
This probably how my destiny ends like this