I know I’m constantly posting but I’m addicted to hearing back from others experiences and advice.
I have been in a toxic friendship with my best friend for over 26 years and now that she has a friend like her for over 7 years now they gaslight, criticize and make me feel bad when I complain to them and maybe they have a right to. Now they have distanced themselves from me and I don’t bother them but I feel they’re prettier, no psychological issues, skinnier more successful better families and life skills than me. So now it comes down to me feeling like the fat ugly mentally ill friend. They trigger me but I’m sad I can’t feel good around them. They have concluded for now I should find other friends and work on myself. I told them I’m jealous of them and I am angry at them and they agree it’s not fair for me to feel this way towards them but at same time they never uplift or support me but want me around as long as I don’t voice my complaints or feelings or things I think their doing wrong to me. I’m now all lone frozen with fear anxiety loneliness and I want to die