it has been a year and a half and I still miss her like it was yesterday. I wish I could have told her that she was the love of my life before it was too late, but now I never will. It hurts so much. I would give anything for just one more day with her, just one more chance to tell her that I love her. I never got to say good bye before she was sleeping forever. I want to wrap my arms around her and jut hold her but instead I get to wrap my arms around her little girl and tell her that I don't know why it had to be her mommy. Trying to be strong for everyone else is slowly killing me and I am so tired.