Hello everyone, I am new. I had my first baby 7 months ago. Two weeks later, I had a panic attack. Now everyday I'm anxious. Not a day goes by that I feel good or happy. I'm scared all the time. I even tell myself that it feels like something is wrong with me and that leads to panic. I cannot seem to control it no matter how hard I try. I feel so unhappy right now. But I have so much to be thankful for. I have a husband and baby to live for. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to be here... like it's too much. These racing thoughts are too much. Sometimes it feels like I can't focus or concentrate. I feel like I'm crazy and have a serious mental illness. I'm afraid of being put on medication or being admitted to the psychiatric ward. I don't want to spend my life on meds or on the psych unit due to me not being able to control my thoughts. I don't want to live like that. I feel so alone. Like no one can help because they can't change my mind or thinking. I don't know what to do anymore. All I want to do is cry. There's nowhere to run. I tell myself horrible things for no reason... like "it'll never get better" "your crazy" "just panic".... over and over all day. I just can't deal anymore
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