At my ends

I've been feeling completely hopeless. I see absolutely nothing good in my life. I really don't know how to stay positive anymore, considering I've been doing what I can to be happy and healthy. I'm extremely depressed and anxious. I honestly don't think I'll ever be ok. I've tried meds, therapy, this and that, ect... But I'm at a loss, because nothing is making me better. I can be ok for little moments of the day, but that's about it. Ugh, I just don't know anymore...

[Depressed1996]

I hope things start to get better for you. If your looking for people to talk to or a support group your in a good place to start.

[Hidden]

Thank you

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador]

How long have you been dealing with anxiety and everything else?

[Hidden in reply to Loveydovey0519]

Honestly since I was very young, probably around 6. The anxiety started because of abuse, it just never ended. There's always something giving me anxiety. Depression came when I was around 13. I'm 28 now, so yeah. I really don't know how to feel ok... Ya know?

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador in reply to Hidden]

I know how you feel. I was anxiety/panic free for about 4-5 years. Until this last October where I had a setback. And now it seems like I'm starting from the beginning. Although I do have good days, it seems like the physical symptoms I am experience outweigh everything else lately.

[jillellen in reply to Loveydovey0519]

You just described me ! I had a period of 4 years nothing then a trigger and boom it hasn't stopped in a year now I am afraid I am in heart failure

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador in reply to jillellen]

Really? We have quite a bit in common then, this last 'setback' has been like being diagnosed and experiencing all this all over again for the first time.

[jillellen in reply to Loveydovey0519]

I have that all the time this sucks but if you ever want to talk I can certainly get where you are coming from

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador in reply to jillellen]

Sounds good! Thank you for that offer, I will take you up on it!

[SabrinaBanks1]

Hey Elliot I'm sorry you feel the way you do and I have a suggestion! I learned today that by helping others you can help heal yourself, maybe you should try and reach out to people! Try helping your co worker or volunteering. I think helping others will give you a sense of belonging and happiness to be able to help another person. Plus the time you stay busy you won't have those bad thoughts we always get out of no where. I saw that you said you had an abusive past from someone who also had an abusive past you can't change what happened. You can't change people, but you can and have the strength to change yourself. I think everyday to myself "what I went through was abuse, it doesn't hurt me anymore, I won't hurt myself thinking about this because I can't change the past I can only be happy " surprisingly I feel better afterwards. Don't lose faith in yourself I hope this helps!