Anxiety is at an all time high

[ashleybakerr01]

I haven't been active on here in awhile...ice just been sleeping and not leaving the home...my anxiety is so bad now more than ever. I'm literally too afraid to touch and eat or drink anything anymore bc I'm afraid I'll react to everything. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I've avoided touching things for so long, my body does react differently at first and it scares me

My depression is severely bad too lately. I'm suicidal thoughts almost daily now...and idk what to do. I really want to avoid meds because I feel they messed me up worse then I ever was...and now I'm desperately going to need to depend on them. I don't want to live that way...depending on medication, I want to live without meds and be happy but it feels so impossible. And my anxiety of literally EVERYTHING is making me miserable 😩.

I feel so alone anymore. All my so called friends ditched me when my mental health started declining,and now I'm down and alone most time 😔. And all these medical issues I'm dealing with, I'm just so overwhelmed with life and everything 💔. I don't know what to do...

[ashleybakerr01]

I obsessively think about everything I touch or eat,whenever I do eat or touch anything that is, and it's absolutely draining. I just wish I knew ways to not do this all the time. It's consumed my life majorly

[Crochetchica]

sorry to hear you’re having a bad time. The app Headspace is good with advice and meditations.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Crochetchica]

Thank you I'll give it a try

[ashleybakerr01]

Ill look into those things

[Ruthy24]

It's terrible when your friends desert you! But it happens - they get tired of hearing about how miserable you are. You'd think they wouldn't but they do. I think I wouldn't but I haven't been in a situation where I was hearing about some one's problems all of the time. I think they don't know how bad you are feeling.

[Ruthy24]

If it were me I'd try the medication. It doesn't mean you have to take it forever. I admire you wanting to not take meds. But I have bipolar disorder so I have to. I sure know about friends getting tired of me and ditching me!

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Ruthy24]

I'm glad someone understands. But I'm also sorry you do. It's a horrible feeling. I was one of the meds before, celexa, and it increased my anxiety so bad I couldn't leave home more than an hour without having bad panic attacks. I feel like it changed me so now I'm afraid to take any of the meds if that makes sense. But I'm also so desperate that I might give it a try or something, not Celexa again though

[Ruthy24 in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I have not taken Celexa but I know once you start on meds it takes the doctor quite awhile to find the right one. It is terrible having to take meds that make things worse but you might have to try different ones if you want to take them. I think I need to take them so I do but I can't say they are always effective.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Ruthy24]

It helped some at first with depression,but weeks in it made me progressively get worse with anxiety and panic attacks out of nowhere. And it was 3 months in. So I quit them cold turkey.

[Ruthy24]

Gotta do what works for you. I hope you are feeling better. Meds aren't for everyone. I know what it's like to have my friends get tired of me when I'm depressed. I say, the worst thing about depression is you don't like yourself and nobody else likes you either. It can be a lonely place. Hang in there. It can't last forever. It Better Not last forever!