Hi. I have just signed up. Some things about me:
I have complex PTSD, anxiety, major depression (recurrent), fatigue, insomnia. The only one of those my doctor hasn't diagnosed me with is the anxiety. For some reason he isn't putting it in my chart, even though he has given me meds for anxiety. I'm wondering if maybe that's because it usually goes hand in hand with PTSD. I have tried several medications for the depression, which none have worked for me. The C-PTSD is something a lot of doctors are still not recognizing, so I feel lucky that I found a doctor who knew what I had. I felt alone until he told me what I had and I found there are many others out there with the same symptoms. It doesn't make me feel better that there are others who suffer like this, but it helps me to know that there is someone out there who recognizes it as a real problem and I'm not going as crazy as I thought I was. I have tried seeing several counselors and therapists and none of them have worked out. I generally feel worse after a few sessions of seeing them than I did before I started. I am taking a prescription sleep med to help with the insomnia.
Well, I used to crochet, but for the last year I just don't have the oomph to get into it. I used to read, (it was ALWAYS my favorite pastime) but I don't do that anymore either. I just can't get into books. I can't focus long enough to remember the last paragraph that I read. I was also learning to paint with acrylic paints, but recently haven't been doing that either. So, basically, at the moment, I am doing nothing.
I am trying to get disability through social security because about all I do anymore besides nothing is I cry. I have been having a hard time finding a job because most places don't want to hire someone who has no people skills and cries all the time. And even if I did find a job, I don't think I could handle it. Fifteen minutes is about all the time I can handle being around someone else at the moment.
Not sure what else to write. Thanks.