hi! I'm mariaoftwo.

[MariaC1977]

I lost my job two years ago because I got sick. The doctors thought I had a tumor then and then they thought I thought I had a stroke and now they just don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not the same person that I was two years ago. I fell into a deep depression and I just can't get back up. I've been hospitalized I did two different therapy groups. I got diagnosed with major depression anxiety and PTSD. I feel like I haven't found my way again and I do not know what my purposes anymore

[nikki911]

Hello,

I'm sorry your feeling so low at the moment. It's so hard when you go down in that spiral to get back up and feel happy. I do believe it can happen though.

Do you ever have moments (even a split second ) where you feel like you again?

Xx

[MariaC1977 in reply to nikki911]

Not really. I'm trying to find myself again, but it's hard. Even trying to make myself take a shower is a hard task🙁

[hannah821 in reply to MariaC1977]

I find it difficult to take a shower too. I don't enjoy it anymore.

[MianKaia]

Hi Mariaoftwo ! You Do Have A Purpose n You WILL FIND YOUR WAY BACK . If Medication is Helping You, Keep Taking THEM !!

Take Your Life Back ! Only You CAN Do This ! I KNOW THAT I HAVE A MENTAL PROBLEM , n I HAVE ACCEPTED IT N TAKE MEDICATION TO HELP ME ! My Reasons Are so Different then Yours, But Panic Attacks n Am DEPRESSED!! But I HOPE YOU HAVE FAMILY SUPPORT TO HELP YOU! If Ever You Want Chat , I'm Here !

When my daughter dis-own me , she was 18 n left to college. I slept all day n cried

I didn't want to get up , not even for my other sons who were 14 n 7 yrs. I also said to myself, Why Why should I get Up? My bed was my security. I would take my boys to school n my panic attacks would hit me n I would turn the car around n come home.!Now it's been 30 yrs since

My daughter has talked to me! It's so hard, but I have a Family who care n have helped me even now, when I get Sad!

[MariaC1977 in reply to MianKaia]

Thank you for your kind words. I have two little girls 8 & 9 and they only reason I get out of bed every day. I was in an intensive treatment program for 30 days and today was my first day alone. It was really hard. Feels like I am alone all over again

[MianKaia]

YOU ARE NEVER ALONE !!!

God is n Will Always be There For You to Talk Too !! Never Forget!! I made Myself

GET UP n then took my kids to school

and every day I Would Go WALKING, around the mall , stores , anywhere there was people I could talk to if I Wanted To.

You have 2 girls!! I Bet they are Beautiful !! YOUR GIRLS ARE THE Most Important Reason To Get Up Every Morning!! I too Did not want to get out of bed. ALSO , But I FORCED MYSELF TO DO IT !!

FIND Something TO DO IN THE MORNING, Walking, Yard work, have brunch with a friend or family!

JUST STAY BUSY N THINK GOOD THOUGHTS!!

You Are So So Young !! You have SO SO

MUCH LOVE GIVEN TO YOU BY YOUR

HUSBAND N YOUR GIRLS!! I went to a lot

Of different doctor also , BUT I FOUND THE Right DOCTOR N HE HAS HELPED ME ON THE RIGHT MEDICATION THAT I NEED. But most of all , My family n my

Boys understand my illness!

It is an ILLNESS n Y O U HAVE TO FIGHT

IT and NOT LET IT TAKE OVER YOU !!!

If Your on Medication, Keep TAKING IT

FOR AS LONG AS YOU NEED TO!

Don't Ever Feel bad About what is happening to You ! There are All Kinds of People that I Met at meeting that were

Can you believe, Doctors, Lawyers, Teachers, Morhers, Grandmother etc!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!

Many

[MariaC1977]

I was in an intensive program for my depression for 30 days Today was my first day alone The people that I was with for my family They totally got me they love me they didn't judge me they were there for me And now I'm not there anymore and I feel lonely without them Of course I can text them call them on the phone. We're going to do lunch next week so that'll make me feel better It's just today was really hard because he was my first time alone and I didn't have my group anymore That's why I seek out this My husband is supportive but he doesn't understand My kids are too young to really understand all they do know is that mommy is not the same anymore That breaks my heart I am on medicine for my depression and nightmares-PTSD ( Child trauma). I stopped taking my meds for one week and it was the worst week ever I thought I could do it on myself that I learned the hard way It's took me almost 2 years to admit that I needed help