Hey everyone! I joined this site a couple weeks ago, I guess. I was in a horrible place, not sleeping, barely keeping it together at work, snapping at my kids & husband - it wasn't a good place to be. On top of that, in mid-March I completely lost my appetite & my anxiety went from about a consistent 3/4 to a raging & constant 10+... when I could manage to eat, I was running for the bathroom, hell I would run to the bathroom 3-4×'s/day even when I ate nothing. There were many days I ate literally NOTHING. I survived on Mt. Dew & air. Unhealthy, yes, I know! I thought my tummy issues were strictly due to anxiety, but I got more anxious bc my maternal grandpa died at age 59 of colon cancer, his oldest daughter beat it at age 42. So I have family history plus symptoms & the GI doc is doing my first colonoscopy in 2 weeks. I'm only 32 & terrified of the results. However, since March, I have found a therapist (she rocks), got new meds from my PCP (allergic reaction landed me in ER with sky high BP & HR plus some uncharacteristic rage issues), started with a new psychiatrist & now back on my old meds which I weaned myself off of last year bc I thought they weren't working & I felt pretty good, so... yeah, guys, don't do what I did! Anyway, my point is that I love this place! I hate that so many people have these problems, but also thankful too bc u guys get it & I've seen not one ounce of judgement or ridicule here. Thanks for being awesome, it's helped me quite a bit reading stories & talking with some of u. And remember, these "issues" we have are not for weak people, we are stronger than anyone without this mess knows bc we manage to fight this, live with it, & even kick it's ass on good days... thanks again for the help u guys all give & for just being u!