I have been depressed on and off for the past 2 years (off meaning only good news sort of brings me back to normal but I'm always at a lull). I live in Chicago with my brother and I'm originally from India. I came here to write my medical licensing exams but for the past 4 weeks, I have been so sad - trying to escape this reality I'm facing. I am constantly on the internet, maybe looking for something or someone. I don't know. Anyway, my question is - Should I just go home and check into some rehab type place? I don't feel like myself and I'm slowly crashing. My own worry is that I have an upcoming exam and I'm so lucky I got into Ivy league schools for graduate school but I literally don't even look forward to it. I don't know what's wrong with me and I'm so ashamed that I'm giving up on my goals to help humanity through my service. I'm 26 and I literally don't know.
I just don't know.