Afraid.

I've been afraid of everything. What if I see things, what if I hear things. What if it's more than anxiety. What if I go through psychosis. If a coincidence occurs I start to question it and say well why did that happen then I start to think what if I think it's a sign from god or that I'm psychic. I just think about a bunch of things that mean I'm going crazy. I have a beautiful little boy whom I should be paying more attention to and be happier but this is something that I can't shake. I'm afraid of leaving my house because I think I'm just going to lose it. Last night I heard a scream and I keep telling myself I'm crazy although it might have been my neighbors who are always arguing. I'm so afraid.

[Hidden]

I know exactly how you feel and what you're going through. I had to get on medicine in order to be able to function. I suffer from major depression and anxiety. I'm on 7.5 mg of Lexapro and it has worked well for me. I hope you find what will work for you so you don't have to deal, trust me I know it's not fun.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much it means a lot to know someone out there understands me. I thought I was the only one who felt like this. Do you find that you can get on with your life with less worries now?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Definitely. Even when I was first starting the medicine I doubted what it could do. I thought for sure I was gonna have to suffer for the rest of my life, but that is far from the truth! I know we all would love a quick cure to this terrible feeling but it takes time. Keep in touch, let me know how you are doing.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Wow, thank you so much. I have Zoloft sitting in my drawer for almost a month and it's been a battle deciding wether or not to get on medication but I think I will consider it. Thank you soooo much. I'm glad you're doing better. I'm hoping for better days to come. I will be in touch.

[Ronkoz in reply to Hidden]

Consider it - you don't have to take on all these thoughts and feelings. Sometimes you need additional help and there is no shame in that

[Hidden in reply to Ronkoz]

Thank you so much the support on here really means a lot.

[Hidden in reply to Ronkoz]

What medication are you taking if I may ask.

[Hidden]

Hi I suffer from this occasionally and what helps me is to think through my fears and try and work out a plan of action if the worst does occur. For example what would you do if you saw something that wasn't there? Decide you would ignore it and do nothing etc. Think through each of your fears and decide in advance on a plan of action. That way you will feel more prepared and less anxious.

[BonnieSue]

You have a lot of anxiety and it doesn't know where to settle yet. It's trying to settle as agoraphobia but hasn't completely done that. It may be GAD because of the nature of being generalized and roaming as you mentioned it.

But anxiety is something our brain tries very hard to compartmentalize to contain our fear and make it easier for us to live around that fear. Hence generalized anxiety which is free floating by nature is trying to attach itself to leaving the home and agoraphobia because it would be easier to be limited to not leaving the home than constantly be faced with anxiety around every corner wherever you are. This is how an excellent psychiatrist explained generalized anxiety to me. He said I have no "off" switch also. So throughout my life as I experience anxiety it builds and builds and never turns off or decreases it simply grows to mammoth proportions. This might be true of you or it might not. We don't know yet, but it's something for you to be aware of.

I hope you see a doctor about this because you might want to discuss medicine for this as it's fairly strong to be doing this to you. And you can very much benefit from counseling on this and other related subjects. Counseling is extremely helpful for many of the problems and challenges you are facing today. I wish you good luck and would love to hear how you're doing after you make some decisions.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

I hope to overcome this. When I can relax and let some of the anxiety and panicky feelings subside I feel okay. Like somewhat normal. But when I'm overthinking and stressed I feel hopeless and worried. I will definitely think about medicine. Thanks.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

I have some depression as well, so I'm going to consider the medicine. You don't think I'm losing it though right ?

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

Of course not. I operate on a very high functioning level because I take medicine for both my depression and anxiety. If I were stuck on my pride and refused medicine, I wouldn't be able to help people on this site nor maintain my own household and support 1 of my sons for whom no drug can control his deep depression. His life is on hold and he can't help others much nor contribute to society like he used to, due to no drug or ECT having helped to get his depression under control enough for him to be functional. That is a failed life. A sad situation. Not so a life that's made useful by taking medicine and become very functional.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

Thank you. Feels good to hear I'm not losing it.

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

I think you don't realize how very many people in the public and private eye are on the same medicines you might be on and I certainly am on. They are everywhere you look. They just don't announce it because there is so much prejudice.

[gogogirl]

I hope that you have someone to talk to ( even a MD or professional) to find out the basis of these thoughts so they do not take away from your reality.