Hi everyone, I'm new to this site. I'm a 22 year old college student (major: Biology) and I have not been diagnosed with any anxiety or depression disorders. I, honestly, don't know very much about the various types of anxiety and depression - besides what I learned in my neurobiology class. I created this post because I wanted to get insight as to whether or not what I'm feeling sounds at all similar to what those of you who have been diagnosed feel.
As a college student, I suffer from the obvious stress school would bring - especially as a science major. However, I have moments (such as tonight) where I know I'm feeling much more stress and discomfort than usual. I'm a chronic procrastinator too which doesn't help my stress levels any. When I became really stressed out, I start to get really panicky and I feel it in my entire body. As that feeling begins to subside, I get really sad and uncomfortable. From there, any little thing can set me further and further into what I term as my "depressive self." I have had thoughts of hurting myself, I think because I usually set myself up for failure and expect myself always to. Now this is where I get really confused....
Once I am put in a social setting, my mood changes dramatically. I think it might be because I don't want anyone to know that I was feeling sad but sometimes my mood just changes and I feel hopeful again. It's really annoying because I am not sure how I should feel. My home life isn't ideal right now and I don't feel that I have a trusted, close friend to talk to. I'm sick of people who don't necessarily have anxiety/depression/bipolar disorder giving me advice on what I need to do to fix things or trying to "relate" to me being sad. So I'd love to hear from you all what you think. I'm not sure if some of what I feel is concerning enough to see a doctor or if I am just hyping up my "normal" stress.
Also, I've only ever had one panic attack (before an exam I was ill-prepared for) from which I agreed to go see my schools counseling center for guidance on stress management.