Hi my name is lexi. I am new to this so i guess i will just explain who i am and why im here. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when i was probabaly 10. I struggled with conrolling my anger and other emotions. my chilhood was very rocky because my parents struggled with keeping my under control. once i got on medication and on the right dosage after multiple failed attempts of going through stages of feeling so drugged out and tired, things started to look up. I was able to focus better in school and control my anger. But as im sure others have experienced, i thought that since i felt good i could stop taking me medication (cold turkey & on my own) which clearly sent me into a downward spiral. So after several times going off and on my self, and the pain of going through highschool losing and gaining friends, in and out of relationships, i always seemed to attract the mean girls that walked all over me. I am now a junior in college with 1 friend that lives in a different area and i dont get to see often. This year has been rough for me because one i went through a breakup after 2 years and just tried to ignore the pain of that, college is hard obviously, my 1 freind isnt the best friend, i dont feel close to my family, and i am now completely off my medication due to a rection. Im in a dark place right now and im just looking for people to talk to that understand. ive been to therapists, but i feel like i could never conect completly because they just dont get it. i feel like no one in my family gets it. Im sorry if this message is a little all over the place but honestly i just need to spill it out. So if anyone takes the time to read this and wants to chat with me. please do.