So I've decided not to leave - not that I ever wanted to but I feel as though things do get too much for me. - especially when things that are explained to me get too technical for me to understand.
My recent blood tests are as follows:
TSH - 4.6 (0.27-4.2) - up from last time which was 4.3
FT4 - 15.6 (12-22) - up from last time which was 15.3
Anti-TPO antibodies - 41,000 (<34) - down from last time which was 84,000
Ferritin - 22 (30-400) - up from last time which was 15
Folate - 4.1 (4.6-18.7) - first time it's been done
Vitamin D - 43.6 (>75) - first time it's been done
Vitamin B12 - 363 (180-900) - first time it's been done
I've been put on Vitamin D supplements but not folate or Vitamin B12. GP has said folate is only out of range a little bit and Vitamin B12 is within range.
Levothyroxine dose is 125mcg and I take Spatone for iron levels.
I've since been told I could be low in:
How am I even still alive? How am I even functioning these days?
I don't even know how I can incorporate all these other things into my daily routine. It's so overwhelming! I've been told I have hypothyroidism back in May last year and I've only been told last month I have raised Anti-TPO antibodies (before I was not told what antibodies I was high in, just that it was raised).
I have no job and my grandfather is expecting me to just walk straight back into a full-time, 9-5 or 8-4 job. Everyone I know in my social circle doesn't think I need to take the thyroxine and is suggesting I stop - and my mum and stepdad came off the phone to me yesterday to tell me how proud they am of me. Why?? I feel like death warmed up and I'm forever putting on a cheery happy voice as if nothing is wrong. Well, what can I say to them? They're both in Tenerife until April because the warmer weather helps my mum's MS! They don't want to hear how poorly I'm doing - so I say I'm fine.
I'm even getting stopped in the street by all these men asking me for my number! RRRRRRR! I'm hypothyroid, I don't feel as good as I look, leave me alone, is what I want to say.
Life is just getting me down right now.