Just wanted to get some thoughts off as I am feeling a bit lonely. I live in NZ away from my family in the UK. I have a lovely husband and two great daughters who are all supportive of my anxiety/depression so I am lucky. Last year I lost both my parents and this involved heaps of travelling to UK and back and the grief of losing them both. I also lost my job. During that year, I developed a 'name' phobia which I can't seem to get rid of and makes me quite scared to go into town, shopping or stiuff like that in case I see someone and I can't think of their name..( I live in a small town). I have also suffered with depression for a few years. So 2012 was a bad year.
This year I was doing really well and getting much better mentally when my husband, (he is 62), was diagnosed with a serious heart condition. This has changed my usually very fit and active man into a shell of what he was, I just hope time and rest will see him improve.So, I have gone sideways and it's like living on a knife's edge and I just feel so lonely at times.Am tearful as I write this.I am trying to be so strong but it's hard at times.Life has changed so dramatically.I have good friends but still seem to feel alone.
Thank you for the support i get from this site. I just felt that I needed to get these thioughts written down. You are all great and I know there are some much wworse off than me but just so lonely at times.