Lost

[DespondentSpirit]

Im 27 and completely lost! I feel useless, lonely and i don't know why I'm here anymore! I still live at home with my dad who abused me as a kid, i have no friends, im stuck in a dead end town with a 7hr a week job! I feel numb, i don't smile anymore, i don't cry or get angry.. I'm just numb

[Hidden]

Hello and welcome

It's awful what you have been through..

I am glad you have joined this forum, you will make friends here who will listen to you and try to help if they can.

Just say want you need to say. 🙂

[DespondentSpirit in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, been on and off these site since i can remember! Seems as though as soon as a feel a little more normal i full down another hole..

[Hidden in reply to DespondentSpirit]

Sure as long as you keep going then you will make it eventually,

Just believe in yourself .

You don't post much on here?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Oh you have only joined sorry

Keep talking to us all on here, make friends ok?

[DespondentSpirit in reply to Hidden]

sorry I meant been on and off sites like this, never used this one before.

I'm trying to keep my head up but it's difficult when you're invisible and lost

[Hidden in reply to DespondentSpirit]

You aren't invisible on here so don't ever think that you are.

We are all the same here and look out for each other, help each other, so keep reading and posting, more people will come along to listen to you.

[DespondentSpirit in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for listening! it's nice just to get it off my chest sometimes you know! ill be around a lot more than likely

[Hidden in reply to DespondentSpirit]

It is good to talk about things so don't stop. Join in on other posts too. 🙂

[EmmyLoop in reply to DespondentSpirit]

Have you guys read Shannon Thomas, Healing from Hidden Abuse? Also, Susan Forward's books and articles have been incredible helping me to see that I'm ok, despite what I think about myself or what others have said and done to me.

DS: It is difficult for me to write this reply because I relate so much to what you wrote.

[DespondentSpirit in reply to EmmyLoop]

I will have to have a look, thank you!

[EmmyLoop in reply to DespondentSpirit]

I'm sorry if I'm harping on this, but I credit one particular counselor and the book "Toxic Parents" with commencing my journey to heal myself from my childhood. Just wanted to let you know.

[Betty1x]

Hi hun,for one u need to get away from ure dad,if he has abused u then u need to get him dun for that and get away from him,u can't live how u are living because it's not right,ure 27,ure still young and have a whole life Infront of u no matter how hard it seems,there are good pple out there who do care and ure not alone,jus get away from the situation ure in plse and then its a start of ure new life

[DespondentSpirit in reply to Betty1x]

I try to go to the police for help when it first happened a long time ago and no one believed me, so i gave up! I have no way of getting away other then making myself homeless

[Acren]

Every problem or any task is made up of small pieces. That is no different for your journey to freeing yourself. First thing is to get away from your excuse of a father.

Being in that dark environment reminds you of the past.

Most important thing is to start believing in yourself and the things that happened where not your fault and do not define you as a person.

There is always a way don’t let it beat you.

[ubonge9]

Hello,can I be honest with you,I can’t possibly,imagine what you are going through,but I feel we are in similar situations although I am 3 years younger than you, but there is one thing I can say, is that the reason you feel like this is fear and uncertainty,and the reason you feel numb,is your body and your mind helping you cope with your fears, I am very of life itself as well, if you feel trapped, at least you are aware you are unhappy with your current situation,but try believing in yourself more and face your fear, with is hindering you from taking steps to untrap yourself,emotions are a good thing just try and let it not take over your life,I truly believe you are the key to your own salvation,so be a little brave and tackle your fear,little by little,trust me,you can do it

Your truly

A tall but very scared black man