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[Charmerbluegirl]

So is like I don't even know anymore. I don't have a clue what to do now. So is like the person who is my best friend in my opinion just gave me a shock of my life. An it's not a good shock I felt so bad that she'd think something like that. She actually thinks I only hang out with her to relieve my stress. Like wth I don't understand anymore. Is like yeah I had a trying week last week but I genuinely really wanted to see her yet something came up and I couldn't. We simply reschedule and now that comment came up so at this point I don't know weather she wants to see me or not. So what do I do now? To me is like one problem after the next. I don't know why life so horrible to me you know.

[sweetiepye]

I know these problems seem huge to you , but they really are small annoyances , Use them to learn to problem solve. Then when bigger things come along you'll have an idea of what to do. Think about ignoring this particular one. Y ou are creating . a lot of drama in your life . Are you sure you want that?

[Charmerbluegirl in reply to sweetiepye]

I'm sure I don't want that but it's just she means so much to me and sometimes the things she says gets me upset and if I confront her about it I'm afraid she might leave.

[Stilltrying_]

Hi and I have been following your posts for some time. I can relate to a lot of what you feel in that I have lacked self belief and self esteem in my life and I feel this is a difficulty of yours. It isn't easy to overcome and I wonder what is your family circumstance that will have caused these issues. I get the idea that you are not anywhere where there is therapy available but there is a lot of stuff online and please know that you are supported on here also.

Maybe at some point you can work on doing little things for yourself which are nice and starting to think you are a nice person as I'm sure you are and then eventually maybe in the future you will start to be able to believe in yourself and not rely on someone else to tell you you are ok.

I am 60 and not there yet so I am not preaching but just expressing my empathy for you as I believe you are genuinely suffering quite significantly. It is very hard to self love if you have not experienced it in your family, As I say I don't know your circumstance but I suspect there will have been some neglect or poor behaviour in your background; if not I do apologise and please know I don't mean to criticise other people that I don't know; just offering my thoughts and suggestions.

Gemma

[Charmerbluegirl in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you so much and it's totally fine and my family is here. I pretty much wanna believe it's my own fault for everything but your words have truly helped much appreciation.