im losing my mind

[Agara33]

the landlady of the house, is shortening my sublet by a month. i have 3 weeks to find an apartment or another sublet...i feel heart broken--i have been trying to let myself believe that things will work out. the holidays here are maybe to blame that there haven't been many apartments advertised...i don't know. i hope if i don't find a place maybe ill be able to stay with a friend until i do...i have so many doubts, im eating myself alive with doubts. i don't know what i should do....

[Nathalie99 Partner]

This is a very short notice and very stressful, especially during holidays when things are closed.I remember looking for an apartment over the Easter weekend once and it was tricky but I got a place eventually.

I hope that everything will align for you and that you will find a new place soon... xxx

[Agara33 in reply to Nathalie99]

the thing is when everything aligns for me i seam to miss it. A friend was leaving her apartment, a decent apartment that i was interested in but she was in the midst of looking and couldnt give me an exact date that it would be free...and then my mother all of a sudden offered that we should buy an apartment so i started looking for sublets. just as i gave the sublet a retainer she all of a sudden called and said her place is free...and i all of a sudden realize that even if i do decide to buy a house i cant go from sublet to sublet. i felt so guilty and complicated about canceling the first girl that i let it go...and the people around me were telling me to leave it, there will be other apartments. the girl ended up screwing me over...and i realize that i made a mistake in hindsight...i just couldnt handle the pressure of all the fast decision making.....i had too many people in my ear and i was in an abusive, unlivable situation...this is the second time that that has happened....i could have had a permanent living situation for 2 months, i could have been done with this torture. it was really cheap and it had a garden--my friend told me ill find someplace better and that shes happy i didnt take it...but i am sad and sorry...just to avoid this hell on earth of looking for an apartment in a housing crisis that feels like its always getting worse and worse

[Agara33 in reply to Agara33]

im honestly trying to convince myself i can actually go back in time

[Nathalie99 Partner in reply to Agara33]

I know it's very hard when good opportunities pass us by and it feels terrible. I think being in that much stress, with pressure so many people, was the reason why it was so hard and I understand that.

I know it's important to feel safe somewhere.

Maybe a hotel or a camping might be a solution in the meantime.

I have a location in a city where I can rent for short periods like 2 or 3 weeks, with contract. I think it should be possible where you live, but it means calling and finding out.

I hope you find a place that is nice and that things change...

[Agara33]

it’s a small town here…no hotels and camping