Drained

[Daylightsaving]

I was at my cousin's funeral yesterday and today feel totally drained. I have woken at 4am the past two nights and struggled to get back to sleep, though not as much last night. The service beautiful and very sad as my cousin was only 32 when she died. I feel physically drained but jittery today. I know I need to look after myself but am struggling to understand what I need right now. I will breathe for now and wait for the answer to make itself known.

[gettingsomewhere]

Hi Daylightsaving

I temember you mentioned you cousin here. This is terribly sad and I'm sorry you have lost someone so young. Heartbreaking!

I think something like this takes a lot out of us. It's very understandable you're struggling with this grief.

I think you're very wise to pay attention to what you need right now. Take it easy and often I find as we give in to things it comes to us.

All the best to you

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Grief is all encompassing, it drains us completely.

Can you try and rest today? Your mind and body needs some time to process.

❤️🐬

[Daylightsaving in reply to Dolphin14]

I was trying to work out the kind of rest I need but I can't. I usually watch a film to rest my body and distract my mind but the sun is shining outside and I feel like sitting inside is a waste of a lovely day as we've had such a long cold and wet winter but I guess the sun will come out again when I'm feeling better and I have a holiday coming up in a few weeks in a sunny spot. I know I need to rest, I don't know why I'm fighting it 🤔 I feel my inner child on the verge of a tantrum about the unfairness of life, so I will agree with her, life is unfair and tragic and miserable sometimes but also wonderful and magical and joyful and fulfilling at other times, that's it, that's life. Now I'm reminded of the Frank Sinatra song youtu.be/TnlPtaPxXfc?si=fPn...(Not working as expected?)

[Daylightsaving in reply to Daylightsaving]

I'll pick myself up and get back in the race, just not today 😊

[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to Daylightsaving]

Perfect song. Even Frank knew what was best

I love how you acknowledged your inner child's feeling but told her there are good things we need to remember. I'm sure that was comforting to her.

I would sit myself in front of that sunny window if I could. Be like a cat today, lol

A vacation in the sun sounds fabulous. I'm glad you have something to look forward to

Take the time you need to recharge.

[Daylightsaving in reply to Dolphin14]

💕

[Daylightsaving]

I hope this is OK but I feel like I need to keep coming back today. I just wrote some birthday cards for my twin nephew and niece but feel sad because they live far away. I feel very alone just now.

[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to Daylightsaving]

Someone is always here for you. It's good to talk things out

❤️