Seem to have so many diversion mechanisms that stop to some degree my PTSD symptoms but create their own.
Binge Eating..although that's not nearly as bad as when I ate whole big loaf smothered with butter and topped off with strawberry cheesecake,
Non- stop anger at everything in my life..apart from my beautiful cats
OCD tidying up/rearranging till it drives me nuts
Compulsive Ebay shopping ,spending fortune that I don't have etc
If I stop these activities I can't handle how I feel, unbearable pain at how my life has been,still is to some degree
My awful violent childhood that led me to be sectioned at 22
The years I slept all day,
The drug use that gave me Hep C..and the worry about my health
The lonliness and isolation etc
Feel a complete screw up.
And i'm 61..older than most of you.