tfw your therapist cancels your appointment cuz she's sick....... god damn it I really needed a session w/ her. She's an expert. I need expertise right now.... I'm lost.
Can anyone who's a survivor of CSA and adult sexual assault help me? I have been groomed and assaulted by many predators for my entire life. I have had PTSD my whole life. I have no idea what it feels like to not have PTSD.
My sex problem is feeling like I need sex to feel good about myself.
The validation of someone else wanting my body... not just the pleasure release. I can masturbate and get the same thing. I just want my partner to desire me enough that she comes after me.... but for her she doesn't like to be the pursuer. She wants to be pursued... but I'm just so worried that she will reject me every time I pursue her for sex. I don't like feeling rejected so I just don't say anything when I'm in the mood... I'm also rarely in the mood. lol it doesn't make sense. I am triggered all the time.